BW, DDay 24/08/2017, the road to R is long and windy.
4th anniversary of DDay
Tomorrow's the 4th antiversary of DDay.
This year, it's not the anger that's topmost. It's the sheer heartbreak.
I have been desperately sad, tearful, but not sobbing, for 3 days.
I know it's getting better. I am in a very different marriage to the one I was in on DDay. He stepped up, he's the husband I wanted for many years.
But this stuff still hurts. A lot. And the antiversary brings them back into focus. And I don't think I'll ever "forget" the date - it is also his birthday 🙈
Anyone farther along the road able to give some hope that the sadness dissipates, like the anger has? Or any suggestions for processing it out of my system? (Yes, I do journal, before a certain person asks 😋)
Thank you, either way, for listening.
10 comments posted: Sunday, August 22nd, 2021