So many steps forward and then back here
16 yrs ago Sunday I found out about my WS affair that happened yrs earlier. We worked through so much and our marriage was so much better for so many years. Fast forward 10 yrs with our kids in high school and being so very busy we let things go through the motions. Addressing it was on my list but I kept putting it aside for other things. I had long stopped babysitting his communications and things. Something felt off and I ignored it a few times. Monday I couldn’t ignore it. I had broken a bone in my face a few days earlier so I was already in pain. I asked for his phone. Found nothing for a while. He was getting anxious and irritated so I kept looking. Finally swiped down to see recent apps and opened one I didn’t recognize. There it was. A conversation with some women and they then agreed to talk (no idea how whether through the app or not because I saw nothing on the phone).
Last time he immediately was remorseful and wanted to work on our relationship. This time he tells me he doesn’t know what he wants. The whole ILYBNIL deal. 
I still want to work on things so giving him some space while trying to continue my life.
Just can’t believe I’m right back here.
3 comments posted: Tuesday, December 3rd, 2024
