Topic: Want out but have 4 kids
Member # 40001
| Posted: 6:31 PM, July 24th (Wednesday)|
Most of the posts I have read or stories I hear are about a woman whose husband has cheated, she wants out but feels trapped by having kids.
Well men can feel that way too. Its not financial, although obviously that would hurt. Its my kids. They look to us as their role models, their picture of a perfect family. I am their rock, she is their mother. Part of me wants to leave her but I can't bear the idea of the pain it will cause to our kids. We are in therapy and she says all the right things but I feel anxious all the time, depressed, have little joy and I have an overwhelming sense of loss. It has been two years. Some healing in beginning but we have stalled and I am not where I need to be to have a fulfilling marriage. Any thoughts?
Posts: 38 | Registered: Jul 2013 | From: Colorado
Member # 36622
| Posted: 6:55 PM, July 24th (Wednesday)|
I am sorry you are here. At first I stayed for the kids. Some days they are still my only source of strength. If you want to make it work you both need to be committed 100%.
What is she doing to make you feel safe?
What is she doing to make herself safe?
What are you doing for you?
What are the two of you doing together to strengthen your M?
fWS 36 (SurprisinglyOkay)
A whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better.
"Knowing is half the battle"
Posts: 2647 | Registered: Aug 2012
Member # 13447
| Posted: 6:56 PM, July 24th (Wednesday)|
I'm just so sorry you find yourself here. It's very hard work to reconcile and often we have doubts.
I feel especially for BHs because so often cheating isn't accounted for in the D so they suffer by having their kids on a reduced custody schedule.
"Being in love" first moved them to promise fidelity: this quieter love enables them to keep the promise. *CS Lewis*
Posts: 11237 | Registered: Jan 2007 | From: Just a fool in limbo
Member # 37735
| Posted: 8:04 PM, July 24th (Wednesday)|
I could have written your post, word for word, except I am the BW.
I just keep telling myself:
"I'm staying for the kids."
I would never do anything to destroy their world. I can wait until we have an empty nest, & then leave. WH has until then to shape up.
Sending you strength.
together 25 yrs, married 24 yrs, 4 children;Rebuilding
D Day: 5/10/2011 PA
OW: WH's co-worker,divorced, no children, 20 yrs younger than I-----& she knew he was married, had met our kids, but that did not stop her from trying to destroy our family
Posts: 1403 | Registered: Dec 2012
Member # 34888
| Posted: 9:42 PM, July 24th (Wednesday)|
Count me in too, almost the same sich, 3 years and 4 kids. Head out to the betrayed men's thread in I can relate. It'll help your personal growth and healing by bounds.
Posts: 739 | Registered: Feb 2012
Member # 40015
| Posted: 9:59 PM, July 24th (Wednesday)|
I hear you I have 3 kids myself. I caught my wife cheating 10 years ago and I'm just as angry and resentful as I was when I found out. we don't fight much but occasionally I will explode at little things she does as if "how dare she". we have never seen a counselor, and I have never cheated on her, and don't even want to. Its strange _ I use to joke about leaving her when our youngest graduated HS, and that will be in 2 years. maybe I should I just don't want to hurt the kids. I'm also afraid they will see me as the bad guy and side with their mother without knowing the truth! That would devastate me! Sometimes I hope that reincarnation is a reality and maybe I will find true love and happiness in my next life??
Posts: 1 | Registered: Jul 2013
Member # 21183
| Posted: 10:04 PM, July 24th (Wednesday)|
I do understand.
BUT - You can be a great hands-on-father; if you are divorced.
My ex-husband and I had JOINT CUSTODY of my two grown sons; and we successfully CO-PARENTED our sons together. He was/IS a wonderful father...and he and I have remained good friends over the years.
It takes work; but it is possible.
A lot depends on how old your children are. I couldn't see myself remaining in a dead-in-marriage for many many years: SO Joint-Custody and Co-Parenting was a wonderful solution in my situation.
I wouldn't spend MY LIFE in an unhappy marriage "for the sake of the kids." From my experience - No One is s real winner in that situation.
Me BS 59
Married 19 years
D-Day Nov 3, 2005
Child: Adopted Daughter 21 College Student now
I can understand being alone; but I hate being with someone and feeling lonely.
Posts: 6153 | Registered: Oct 2008 | From: Texas
Member # 34262
| Posted: 10:55 PM, July 24th (Wednesday)|
Your kids might know more than you think. I certainly did.
I BEGGED my father (BS) to divorce my mother (WW) when I was 15. He refused because he wanted to spare her/me the "family breakup." It was awful. I got to see years of dysfunction and didn't have the first clue in how to have a relationship.
So take that POV for what it's worth.
Me: BS 45
Her: fWS 48 (same sex partner)
Together: 18 years now (both MDs)
OW: meh so what 40s PhD
DD1: 10/30/11EA; DD2: 11/10/11 Had ONS; TT until 12/26/11; broke NC 6/12; NC again 7/12; R-ish
Posts: 2262 | Registered: Dec 2011 | From: Great Southwest
Member # 38094
| Posted: 11:59 PM, July 24th (Wednesday)|
I'm in the same boat although I have an unremorseful WW. I don't want to give up, at best, 50% of my time with the kids and face trying to co-parent with a person who can't be trusted and clearly is willing to put her own selfish "needs" ahead of parenting.
7 months out and I've resigned myself to accepting that, divorce or no divorce, I won't be able to get this toxic person out of my life so I just need to be the best dad I can be and find a way to remain civil to her. I think of it as a "happiness tax" since my kids are my world and, unlike my WW, actually want to spend as much time as possible with them.
Posts: 26 | Registered: Jan 2013
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