Welcome to SI. Weekends are a little slow here. Hang on and keep posting. There are wonderful people here who have been where you have are and have felt like you do. They have gotten through it and so can you.
In the upper left hand corner there is a link to the healing library. Take some time to read through there.
Also there are a few really good threads in Just Found Out. They might be a few pages back but they are worth looking for:
Before you say Reconcile
A Great post for Newbies
Hang in there.BS 39
fWS 36 (broevil)
A whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better
"Knowing is half the battle"
Expecting progress not perfection