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User Topic: Found pre-paid cell phone user manual
StrongAndCapable
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Default  Posted: 12:53 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

So, we have been separated since May 1st when he broke NC with OW. We were attending MC for a while but I stopped going because WH was lying to me and the counselor regarding everything. He is your typical unremorseful, gas lighting, selfish wayward. I have already provided a retainer with a divorce attorney and am moving forward with D without his knowledge. He has made it clear that he does not want to R but no further action has been taken on his part. Which makes me think he would fence sit for a lifetime if he could.

He left today for two weeks to head to his hometown which is where the PA occurred as their families both live in the same town. They grew up together and dated for three months before me and WH got together. Anyway, he has continued to lie and be deceitful regarding everything. Granted, he doesn't really need to tell me anything as we are separated but why does he lie? Why not just be honest when I ask if the OW is going to be there at the same time as him? Especially when he originally wanted to bring our son with him to meet the OW, I'm sure. I didn't agree to that.

So, he left his vehicle at my house while he's gone and our son and the neighborhood kids were playing in it, pretending to be driving, making a mess. When I crawled inside to get them out, there was a pre-paid cell phone users manual and pamphlet right there on the floor. Our cell phones are still connected under my name and I receive the bill. (He pays me for half). So, obviously this is his secret way to keep the long distance relationship going until their planned rendezvous. But why lie and be so secretive about it? The whole A is out there on the table, why continue to be so deceitful? Why not just call her from the regular cell phone? There's no chance of R, so why does he care? Why does he continue to lie? How can we possibly co-parent for the next 20 years if he continues to be deceitful and secretive?

I'm working really hard on trying to detach. This has been my biggest challenge. We only communicate regarding our son and finances. Allowing the truck to be parked here was something I felt I shouldn't have agreed to but I did. I shouldn't care that he has another phone because it prohibits me from detaching but I'm sure you can all relate how difficult it is.

Just wondering why he keeps lying?


BS - me, 37
WH- him, 38
DS - almost 5
DDay - mid April
7 month EA, long distance
3x PA
Continuing long distance A
Moving toward D

Posts: 41 | Registered: Jul 2014
Jrazz
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Default  Posted: 2:28 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Just wondering why he keeps lying?

For the same reason he lied in the first place - he's ashamed and he doesn't want to deal with things like reality and guilt.

You deserve the truth, but he's not going to give it to you. Wondering why is going to drive you nuts. I'm so sorry. Keep protecting yourself and the kiddos. Good call on keeping the D atty info to yourself. He's not volunteering anything, and neither should you.

Hopefully he will try to be as decent a father as he can under the circumstances.

(((StrongAndCapable)))


I bow to those who keep their hearts open when it is most difficult, those who refuse to keep their armor on any longer than they have to, those who recognize the courage at the heart of vulnerability. - Jeff Brown

Posts: 17295 | Registered: Feb 2011 | From: California
Ostrich80
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Default  Posted: 2:56 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm sorry you had to find it, even though you know he's still in the A, more confirmation still is upsetting. Your doing all the right things. He's lying because he know its wrong but he still chooses it.


BS..me
WS..him
Been with him over half my life
4kid
DD1 10-01-09 DD2 02-12-12 discovered it never ended
OW..nothing special. Just your average skank
Status..#$%@????

Posts: 5026 | Registered: Feb 2012 | From: midwest
NeverAgain2013
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Default  Posted: 4:32 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I don't believe for a second that he feels what he's doing is wrong or that he feels guilt and that's why he's hiding his activity from you and lying.

Honestly, I think he's lying about his affair and hiding things from you because he's not looking to go to war with you, and he's not looking to purposely hurt you, either. Why rub it in your face if he can avoid doing that? You seeing all the phone activity on your cell bill between these two will cause nothing but ill will and animosity between you both - and he doesn't want that. He doesn't want to give you ammunition to come down on him about every phone call or text to her that you saw on the cell bill so the way to avoid that - and to avoid you having physical proof of their continued contact - is the new secret burn phone. He's not looking to add insult to injury here, and he doesn't want to make co-parenting a nightmare for you both, either.

I think he's just looking to keep you duped because it's more peaceful for everyone that way. Why hand you continued proof of his affair and cause even MORE anger and hurt if he can avoid it?

Secondly - and more importantly - it's to his advantage to keep you in the dark and try to keep your anger at a minimum. He knows the time will come (and from what you've said, it's coming a lot sooner than he realizes!) where you'll have to deal with divorce attorneys about custody issues and division of financial assets etc. etc. etc. He's trying to protect himself because he knows a scorned, angry wife with a shark for a lawyer can sometimes do serious damage to a guy when she's out for blood. Why do that to himself if he can pretend he's Mr. Good Guy and keep your anger at a minimum? I'm sure his friends have told him horror stories about being taken 'to the cleaners' in their divorces and blah blah blah.

I think there's also a pride thing going on where he still doesn't want you to think he's the lowest piece of scum on earth. I mean, why HAND that to you if he can avoid it?

But I honestly think him feeling guilty or bad is the FARTHEST thing from his mind. It's all about self-preservation, now.


Be careful - that 'knight in shining armor' may very well be nothing more than an assclown wrapped in tin foil.
ME: 50+ years old and cute as a button :-)
Ex-WBF: Just a lying, cheating, gravy-sucking pig - and I left him in 2012.

Posts: 1752 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: USA
Chinadoll30
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Default  Posted: 7:17 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Maybe the sneaking around is part of the thrill? I mean, a normal relationship where they have to pick up each other's dirty socks and underwear sure isn't fun. Living with honesty and integrity is so boring. But sneaking around, lying, the thrill of maybe getting caught? That's escapist. That could be what he's addicted to.


"We must see all scars as beauty. Okay? This will be our secret. Because take it from me, a scar does not form on the dying. A scar means 'I survived'." -Chris Cleave

Posts: 292 | Registered: Apr 2014 | From: Philadelphia
WaryOptimist
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Default  Posted: 7:27 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Keep working at the detachment. Don't bother wondering about why he's doing whatever he's doing.

While he's out of town I would recommend ramping up the D preparation, and get copies of all paperwork & documents your lawyer will need.


Me: The faithful one
Him: WS
4 great kids
Married 28 years, together 36
D-Day: April 1, 2006 (yep, April Fool's Day...)
Aaaaaas Yoooouuu Wiiiiiish...

Posts: 649 | Registered: Jun 2008 | From: Here & There
EvenKeel
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Default  Posted: 7:36 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

While there is no good way to maneuver through this situation....this is probably the best option.

Meaning, if he was sitting on the phone in front of you all gushy-gushy...then it just rubs it in your face (even though you know it is going on).

Take this as a sign you are on the right path. You know of the A, you know it continues and it affirms you are making the right steps in the D.

It also affirms you can't trust his words. I am 4 yrs D'd and the ex still lies about stuff. Luckily I am at the point of healing where my gut reponses is like "I don't care what you are doing...".



Eyes are useless if the mind is blind.


Posts: 2099 | Registered: May 2009 | From: Pa
BtraydWife
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Default  Posted: 8:11 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I don't agree with what neveragain said. What he does or doesn't do is not an attempt to be civil or protect your feelings. Make no mistake he is not doing anything to protect you, it's all to protect his fragile ego from this entire mess he has created. Don't misinterpret this because he will run you down in anyway possible if he feels justified to do so.

What he does is all about him and him alone. I agree he is still lying because he can't face his own reality.


Me-BW
Him-WH
DD-March 2010
TT for 6 months
Unremorseful for 3.5 years

Delay is the deadliest form of denial. - C. Northcote Parkinson

Your standards aren't up for negotiation just because he/she can't meet them.


Posts: 1747 | Registered: Feb 2014 | From: United States
norabird
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Default  Posted: 8:55 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Don't be upset with yourself for not being detached and being upset by this. No, it's not your business any longer, and only confirms what you know--but that doesn't protect you from being hurt. Practice stopping yourself when you get fixated, but if that's too hard, let yourself have the feelings AND simultaneously keep moving to get the D going and to heal yourself. Healing yourself will ultimately mean not sending all of your thoughts towards him. He really doesn't matter to you anymore and doesn't deserve any of your thoughts or energy.

It's not easy, but it will get easier.


Sit. Feast on your life.

Posts: 4151 | Registered: Jan 2014 | From: NYC
StrongAndCapable
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Default  Posted: 11:54 AM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks for your input. It took all the power in me to not text him with a snarky remark like, "Can I get your other cell phone number in case there's an emergency at DS's school?" But, that would lead to more dishonest answers from him, so why bother even asking? Every word that comes out of his mouth is a lie or a deliberate omission. Ugh! It's never ending!!


BS - me, 37
WH- him, 38
DS - almost 5
DDay - mid April
7 month EA, long distance
3x PA
Continuing long distance A
Moving toward D

Posts: 41 | Registered: Jul 2014
william
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Default  Posted: 2:50 PM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

He doesn't want you to shatter his fantasy world. Each time you confront him it does just that. He escapes through her. You are reality. Why would he willingly leave fantasy world when his head is inserted in his rectum.
I read something similar in the healing library but it never really made sense to me until now.

[This message edited by william at 3:41 PM, August 5th (Tuesday)]


me - bh
her - lara01

from 09/11 - 05/13
2 ONS, 10 sexting partners, 1 LT EA/PA

??/06/13 DD/1 - admits to LT EA, begin false R.
01/13/14 DD/2 - LTA was PA.
01/18/14 DD/3 - sexting 5 guys.
01/19/14 DD/4 - 2 ONS with different guys


Posts: 543 | Registered: Jan 2014
craig2001
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Default  Posted: 4:24 PM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Leave the manual on his front seat. He will quickly learn is it not smart or very good at being sneaky.

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StrongAndCapable
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Default  Posted: 6:20 PM, August 5th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Craig2001, that's exactly what I did with the manuals after I found them. They are propped up so neatly and pretty on the driver's seat.


BS - me, 37
WH- him, 38
DS - almost 5
DDay - mid April
7 month EA, long distance
3x PA
Continuing long distance A
Moving toward D

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