Glad you're going to use the 180.
But I guess I figure since I live a little out of the way, it would put them out and I don't like putting people out.
This can be a good trait in small doses, but at some point, you have to learn to impose on people, to a healthy extent. Not forcing or manipulating, but accepting their help, and being able to ask for it when you need it. People are not mind readers and they also may not mind going out of their way for special circumstances. Treading on eggshells because of the fear of being a burden is no way to live.
Is there a smaller home or apartment in your area/school district you could rent? There must be something out there that would help lighten the financial/yardwork situation.
Also, if you have crushing chest pains, call an ambulence! That's what they're for. People die because they don't want to 'bother' anyone and drive themselves to the emergency room. Those brought in by ambulence get seen first.
Not forcing or manipulating, but accepting their help, and being able to ask for it when you need it.
I'm getting a little better at accepting help now and then though....because I also learned that some people truly do like to help others and it makes them feel good, so I can give them that opportunity (I like to help others, so why wouldn't other people?)
So, you have a 15 to 16 year old living at home, and she can't help cut the grass??
Also, if you have crushing chest pains, call an ambulence!
I also got to pick up my DD yesterday in my "new" used car (I love it! It is a 2002 Grand Prix and the engine seems pretty solid!) and my mom was there. She talked to me a bit and told me she loved me and no matter what, I am her DD and she will always love me, but she denied ever saying she didn't want a relationship with me anymore. I know I didn't just make that up.....I remember exactly what she said, where I was when she said it, etc....because it kind of traumatized me a bit. I do think she has totally blocked it out though or just truly doesn't remember saying it....I am really starting to fear her physical ailments are starting to hit the mental area.....
Thanks everyone that lended support to me while I'm dealing with this.....
[This message edited by NaiveAgain at 8:59 AM, August 6th (Wednesday)]
Push mowers are GREAT exercise. I used to use one when I lived on Long Island.