While at work today, I realized how I apologize for everything and I feel guilty for everything. I shouldn't when I did not do anything to feel guilty or apologize for.
I shouldn't have to apologize for packing my lunch in a brown paper bag.
I shouldn't be guilted in to do volunteer service when I have plans.
I shouldn't have to apologize for being kind.
I shouldn't have to apologize or feel guilty for not pleasing anyone or feeling like I did something wrong when I did not. I know it's because I always apologized growing up and everyone in my family guilted me into feeling the way I did. I will not let that take over me.
What I can apologize for is hurting BBF and causing him the pain and suffering that he is going through. I can apologize for not putting BBF first and putting his life at risk for an STD. I can apologize for not putting him first.
I can apologize for calling and order to an at a restaurant and find out that I placed it in the wrong state. I would have got upset at myself for not looking and realizing that's what I did. But instead I laughed it off. Today is a new day, and I will only apologize for when I feel is right. Not because I feel guilted. WGF - 24
BBF - MercilesslyNuked, 29
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