Do you ever feel like giving up, but then realize that you would be running away from the only person you love and care about? The person who can just make your eyes and heart smile without even saying a word?
Some days I feel like giving up, but then I know I would be running away from what I have done to BBF. He is here because of me and I can't just run away like I have been doing all my life. I see so much pain that I have caused him and it's not fair. I wish I could just take away all his pain.
Some days I wish we never met as he deserves a woman and not a girl/child. We started dating while I was in another relationship and I slept with the ex when we were together.
He is a great guy with a wonderful soul. Some one who loves his friends and family and will fight to the end of the world for them. He is a someone who listens and understands you and accepts you as you are. He makes me want to be a better person and he just literally makes my whole body feel like its smiling.
I guess this was just a vent as I am having a hard time. WGF - 24
BBF - MercilesslyNuked, 29
DDay 1 - 1/6/14
DDay 2 - 1/23/14
I Am Strong! I Am Beautiful! I Am Smart! I Am Worthy!