Anger is good....I think it helps you heal....you broke 180 today, but tomorrow is a new day. You will learn how peaceful it is to not contact him at all!
My DDay was 3 months ago exactly....I am still angry, but I do not send crazy long texts to STBXWH anymore ( I did in the beginning though, now it's mostly sarcastic remarks about OW). The way I am getting back at him is where it hurts mosts...his wallet. I plan on getting alimony, child support, half of our paid off house, half of his 401K, etc...He did not want attorneys involved, but I am doing what I need to do and he is NOT in control any more!
You will get through this!!BS:41 (me)
Married 15 years
Separated as of 01/16/2014,now divorcing...WH did not want to reconcile.
You can't rationalize irrational behavior.