I feel pretty numb today.
I believe my H probably is remorseful(but who am I to say? I thought he was faithful). He is doing the things he should be doing. He is trying to be the picture perfect WS but how much water is too much water under the bridge?
I've started on anxiety meds and I likely will get antidepressants when I get to see the psychiatrist. I have hooked up with an IC. I have a hard time getting through the day at work though because, in my case, the OW outed the affair over the phone at my job, and one of my coworkers decided to tell everyone. I feel like I have the plague.
I am reasonably sure that the ow is not pregnant. This was all just part of her ploy to get him to leave me. She is ugly, BTW and all I could think of as I read all her texts and emails was one, holy crap this chick is a whore and secondly, she isn't very bright.
I feel very alone in this battle. I decided to tell only those people who could be supportive and as it turns out, there is no one that fits that description. I put all my eggs in one basket...him. Thought he was my best friend.
One thing for sure, you DO have the 'right' to tell your WH exactly what's on your mind, exactly how you feel, and you have every right to tell him to back off. If he truly does want to stay in his M, he will honor all those and will still try to find ways to prove his remorse to you. ((((DyingInside))))
OW called me at work. She claims she is pregnant
This woman has been ridden more than times than a seasoned race horse. Question: IF she is really pregnant, HOW does she know who fathered it?
47 is the new year of treating myself better than I have in 6 years.
What ever doesn't kill me makes me stronger so long as I remember that
My favorite drink is no longer Guinness but water.
She is ugly, BTW and all I could think of as I read all her texts and emails was one, holy crap this chick is a whore and secondly, she isn't very bright
This is standard qualifications for being an "other" woman: can't get a man the normal way...go steal one to feel superior. There is a sick warped mindset that makes them believe what they are doing is right and "true" and a dazed brainless mindset by the cheater that this AP is so much better than what they had at home.
Paul Newman had said about his wife Joanne Woodward when asked about cheating on her and he said "I have steak at home, why would I look for hamburger?"
You are steak. Remember that.
2 wives that I know(wives of my H's two best friends) and, apparently, two wives that I don't know(don't know those two husbands either. H's friend #1 set him up with OW. It was his ex-girlfriend. He gave my h her address, he went to her door and she gave him a bj. That started an 18 month affair.
The whole thing makes me sick. He wants to rebuild. I can't stop thinking. About the fact that he banged the whore over and over unprotected. It's disgusting.