But, you are right I should not care, and it is harder when you have to look at them everyday.

and here I am cooking dinner and I shit on his parade and he got mad because I was not giving ego

Do what YOU want to do around the house. If you used to ask for his help doing certain chores or things don't ask, figure out a way to get it done yourself. It's a good way to start the detachment.

You have to break your own routines to get yourself going. I refused to eat stbxww cooking while we were doing in-house S. I made my own dinner. I started washing my own clothes, yes it sucked in the beginning but I had to do it because I would be doing it for myself 100% of the time and for the kids 50% of the time once we had officially separated.

If he does something stupid and pisses you off don't engage with him come here to vent or call up a friend to vent. It takes time to get the 180 and detachment down and you will mess it up but when you do just start it right back up again.

[This message edited by 7yrsflushed at 1:23 PM, March 28th (Friday)]

I never ask for help in chores or anything really, I always have done or tried to do it myself all the way down to fixing something.

He get pissy because I will not longer clean the basement or the bathroom down there. I don't use it and it is his place. I clean upstairs because that is my place.

Dinner well, I cook mainly for my son but I will never deny a person food. And he does grill or will cook every now and than. That doesn't bother me. I love to cook and I like when people eat. We don't eat together anymore so we eat at different times or he will be downstairs or me upstairs. I DO however try to eat with son when he is not busy with something.

But, I will keep pushing, my biggest problem is engaging him! That is what I need to learn the most!

Faithful w/Love, I have a very suspicious nature. My thought on it would be that he has a new love interest with the same name as his mother and *that* is who he is trying to impress with that tat and rubbing your face in it to continue to show his disrespect.

I'm sorry you are still forced to have his presence there, but please practice what has been said and NC, NC, NC, NC.

Marriages that start this way, stepping over the bodies of loved ones as the giddy couple walks down the aisle, are not likely to last.

Talking the talk, not walking the walk.

Seeing good as evil, and evil as good.

___

Yep.

That's my ex, too.
Used to drive me insane.
Literally insane.
He'd give me a black eye, and would have a group of people petting him, and telling him it was alright, and he's a good man, and don't beat yourself up... And I'm standing there bleeding, being handed someone else's kid to look after while they make sure that Jerkface is okay.
Right.
Because my EYE is so much harder than his FIST

(And then the next day would roll around, and those same people would be floored at my black eye... And just thunderstruck / "what happened".
Ummmmm... You know last night, as my ex was sobbing into all of your guys arms? THATS what he was crying about. Punching me in the face. (And then they'd argue, NOoooooop... That's not what happened. That couldn't be what happened. He called us, said that he was a terrible person and didn't know if he could go on, and felt like dying, and blah blah blah blah blah... Not that he HIT you. What did you do??? I mean, he's not that kind of guy. / What, the kind of guy to punch his wife and then get everyone to make him feel good about it? No, of course not. )

Amazingly, I no longer care, more than once in a blue moon.

The greatest gift of divorce = no longer HAVING to care.

But it took a long time.

YEARS of work, that he'd take credit for.
YEARS of work, that he'd just dismiss if he couldn't claim credit
YEARS of work, that he'd try to make seem evil if I did get credit.

It takes awhile to move out of that sick-sick-sick roller coaster.

It feels like losing 100 pounds.
And color returns to the world.
And a chorus of angels singing.

LOL... But you'll get sucked back into hypocrisy land, and get the joy of re-emerging more than once. So, don't worry! It feels good enough to be normal/sane that it's almost worth getting caught up in their twisted world view, just to escape again!!! Ahhhhh... Can hear that hallelujah chorus, now!

Chesh

[This message edited by CheshCat at 11:21 PM, March 29th (Saturday)]

And yes, Adonai did tell Moses in Leviticus 19.28 "You will not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead or print a tattoo upon you. I AM the LORD!..
So let Adonai place judgment on your STXH and you take care of YOU.