He is back. I agonized all weekend on how to confront him. I simply said, I know you were with someone on deployment, I am hurt and I am confused. Then he took a pause and said, I am sorry, I made a mistake and I don't want to lose you.
So no added dramas, just seems he was relieved and ready to prove he can be everything I want him to be for our future together. He has always been levelheaded and I wasn't surprised it seemed like he said the right things,
I love him and so it's easy to want to forgive him. It just seems too easy. I've given him a list of my deal breakers and he agreed to all of them and even has inquired about couples retreats on his own. I am going to do IC to get my head straight and then ask him to go.
Feel like I'm missing something but I did cave in to having totally amazing sex. Ugh. Such a wierd mix of emotions going on.