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It took me about ten months to feel a bit normal again, and that was with meds. My WH had a two year affair so I don't know if the length changes how long you feel out of sorts.
He broke NC about two weeks ago and within three days of me finding out I woke up in excruciating pain and could not move my back. I've been to the chiropractor every other day and they're working on getting my back into better shape. It turned out I had two herniated disks. I think the stress from what my husband did just finally sent it all over the edge. Yay.
I'm a little over a month since my dday and I've just started experiencing panic attacks over the past two weeks. I also wake up two to three times a night in a terror and when I am sleeping, it's usually nightmares. I'm afraid to go to sleep and I'm afraid to wake up. I have lost 20 pounds since dday and I also experience times of physical pains - around my heart and in my stomach. I get tremors at times too.
I'm trying to overcome it on my own, but I can't take this not sleeping for much longer. Unfortunately, I am trying alcohol to help me stay asleep. I don't want to become dependent on it but I also don't want to become dependent on pills either.
I feel for everyone here. It sucks that any of us have to experience this hell on earth.
I have PTSD from a traumatic childhood so I have always had the nightmares, trouble sleeping, and panic attacks, but this has surprisingly gotten better the more I stand up for myself in all areas of my life. I am still extremely hypervigilent, but my IC tells me that this is normal with all I've been through.
I still go days before I realize that I haven't eaten. I have noticed that I am getting a furrow between my brows and I've been thinking about getting botox for it.
D-day: Oct. 2013 with ongoing revelations.
6 affairs, 1 OC, My sister was OW#5 with countless attempted A's.
Considering R but fully ready to D.