Since the mess that brought me here I’ve struggled with accepting that people have egos. Though I myself might not always be the best practitioner, I really value humility. Not having to speak for accomplishments just says so much more to me about character than bragging about every little achievement or denigrating others.
Ok so there is that, and I’m fine with my value, but I’ve noticed I’m oddly hyper vigilant about umm, admonishing ego in others. I know it’s hypocritical but it just sets something off in me. Even a comment about appreciating a fictitious, narcissistic character (House, Sherlock, Frank Underwood) for their superior intellect, sarcasm or scheming, compels me to clarify that the character is interesting and compelling, but certainly not a role model.
My SO was really excited about his “cool” new professor last night, and he was telling me all the little things he said in class, and rather than just be happy that SO was happy, all I could think was, this guy sounds like an insufferable narcissist, is this what you aspire to be?
Anyone else struggle with this? Any clue how to check my judgment of judgment at the door?