Strangely, I feel I fit in more now than ever. Xpos is very hostile, negative, angry, and dislikes being around people. We seldom did things with anyone outside of his family or our children. He would not go to festivals, fairs or the like because,well, people are there! We went out to eat alone or infrequently with one other person or couple.
Now I'm busy all the time doing things with people of all ages from my grandchildren, to friends my children's ages, to friends near 80 and having a great life. And I've been traveling a LOT. I've reconnected with friends from childhood and school and made new friends from all over, like friends from SI and from my travels.
Life is good now! I never realized how much xpos was dragging me down!! I hope you find what you need to fit better.
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[This message edited by thebighurt at 7:09 AM, March 5th (Wednesday)]
I moved to a new country less than three months ago and already have good friends here, because I intentionally sought out people to connect with, made plans, made calls, reached out and intentionally made a community. I planned events, I invited myself to events others were hosting, I went out of my way to make potential friends feel special and to be a good friend - and people reciprocate.
Community is built, not intrinsic. So if you're unhappy, start building.
But sometimes it would be nice to be on the receiving end of the invites instead of being the one to do the inviting.
I have a few friends that I can be with who, while we don't share the same interests, we just mesh. I've moved closer to them, but not close enough. We are like a family--somewhat far-flung, but when we get together, it's like we never left.
I know I'm weird; I own it, and I like it.
I remember feeling like that at the mall. Could all these people look at me and know i was a marital failure? It passed, thank goodness.
I guess also in my experience if you treat people like they are special, they learn to value you and start inviting you naturally. Maybe that's not normal, but it has yet to fail me.