I am at a point where I am trying to tease apart the abandonment and hurt I felt as a 12 year old boy and that which I feel from my wife's betrayal.
This is exactly what I am struggling with as well.
My father didn't leave me physically, but he was gone nevertheless. He was an emotionally abusive, selfish, extreme cheater. He still is, and because of my husbands affair, so many old wounds have begun bleeding again.
Seems like I have been trying to escape this pain my entire life, and I have never been successful. Lately, I have had the thought that my WH 's affair might be the catalyst that allows me to release myself from this old pain, to let go, to move on. Those are shackles I have worn my entire life, and it would be wonderful beyond description if I could cast them aside and be free.
It would be - freedom. Healing. A blessed new day.
Blakesteele, I pray these things will manifest in your life, and in mine..