I've had insecurities about my boyfriend being friends with his ex girlfriend. I never felt like he was going to cheat on me but I always felt like I was competing against her for some reason. I always felt like he never loved me as much as he loved her. I spent a short time in counseling to help me figure it out and I think after two years it was getting easier for me.
To make a long story short, he broke up with me the other day with hardly any discussion about it. He basically said I didn't trust him, I never would and I would never get over him being friends with his ex. Basically he broke up with me, apologized and just said it will never get better so we might as well end it now before we end in a bad breakup.
Of course I feel like crap and I am mostly surprised at how easy it was for him to throw away a two year relationship.
I realize a lot of how I acted was because of my insecurities. I've made an appt with a counselor. I'm just wondering what others think about this, if they've been through the same thing with someone who they met after their marriage and any other words of advice would be helpful.
Thanks for listening. I realize it's hard to tell an entire story in a single post.
D Day - Feb 15, 2009
Honestly I think that it was very easy for him to throw away a 2 year relationship for he was unwilling to throw away the longer relationship with the XGF. I think that your instincts were spot on and while you might be hurting now, I have to believe that this might be a blessing for you in the long run as it seems that this XGF would always be in the picture. At this time take care of yourself. If you feel that you might have been too untrusting then be honest with a good friend or an IC and let them level set things.
Think of the haters in your life as sandpaper; they’ll scratch you up time and time again but in the end you’re polished, smooth, and spotless..while they end up useless
We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.
I am so sorry you got hurt.
I think it is very hard when we have a past of dealing with infidelity. That battle of figuring out if our own insecurities are the issue or if it is really our gut talking and we need to heed warning.
I broke up with him because of my triggering. Lo an behold, two weeks later I suspect that they think they are in love from their twitter feeds. A month later it was confirmed. (And at some point in there, he requested no contact and blocked me on facebook! He didn't want me to know that I was right.)
Trust your gut. If you are uncomfortable, you have to lean back a bit and see how you feel. Who wants to be in a relationship where you are triggering? If you keep getting a strong repeat message then don't ignore it. Find someone that you KNOW adores you.
Marriages that start this way, stepping over the bodies of loved ones as the giddy couple walks down the aisle, are not likely to last.
Plus.....after you have been through what we have been through....you tend to become overly cautious and wanting, NEEDING, and expecting boundaries with the opposite sex should have been a given!!!! ESPECIALLY with an ex!!! They are exes for a reason! If there aren't kids involved....cut those ties out of respect!!!!
[This message edited by She11ybeanz at 3:24 PM, January 9th (Thursday)]
ME - BW - 35
HIM - XWH - 39
D day: November 15th, 2009
Married: 5 Years, together 8
Divorced: December 13th, 2010
New Beginning: Piper/8-3-12
Trust your gut.
He was with you for 2 years. You were supposed to be in a serious relationship, and he wouldn't ditch his old gf for you? He has a boundaries problem. It's him, not you!
If he was really "just friends" with her, and it made you really uncomfortable, why couldn't he give her up? You are supposed to be the priority, but he made her the priority because you are the one he got rid of. He still has feelings for her. You don't want to be second best.
I'm so sorry for your pain (((ladythump))) But you deserve to be the priority.