Topic: Nightmare holidays
Member # 30997
| Posted: 1:46 PM, January 6th (Monday), 2014|
So much has happened in the last few weeks I can barely start to understand it all and feel very overwhelmed and need to let some of this out. I hope that's OK and not sure if this is NB or where else it might go?
I'll just list it for the sake of keeping this manageably short!
- my dad died suddenly and unexpectedly the week before Christmas - my mum has chronic health issues and will require support - from me
- SO has had some major health issues and now requires to address this (won't go into it but woman's troubles)
- SO is also feeling that her needs are not being met in our relationship - I told her last year that I wasn't ready to move in and she says she feels peripheral to my life - we kinda fell out over it at the weekend and have hardly spoken since - she is also concerned about us having even less time together with me needing to provide more support to my mum, which I can understand, even if the timing of this conversation could have been better
- D from WXW is finalising this month
- WXW has split up with OM
- work is crazy busy and I have big issues to sort out there
- time is coming to sort out HS for my DS and this is a bone of contention all round
I have signed up again for IC and trying desperately to carve out some time so that I can get some headspace - had none over the holidays what with the funeral and Xmas etc.
Grief is awful - has taken me right back to the aftermath of DDay even if it is different, the overwhelming sensations of anxiety, fear and sadness are familiar.
Struggling just when I felt it was all starting to go well...
Posts: 870 | Registered: Jan 2011
Member # 33882
| Posted: 2:19 PM, January 6th (Monday), 2014|
Wow, friend, that is a lot going on at once. I am really sorry for the loss of your father.
him (NPD Ex)
"Diamonds aren't a girl's best friend, freedom is."
Posts: 2589 | Registered: Nov 2011 | From: MA
Member # 31094
| Posted: 2:20 PM, January 6th (Monday), 2014|
I'm so sorry for your loss.
Posts: 3356 | Registered: Feb 2011 | From: NWPA
Member # 30024
| Posted: 2:22 PM, January 6th (Monday), 2014|
Oh, velveteer, I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your dear father. (((velveteer)))
I am so sorry that things seem to be snowballing in an overwhelming way. Yes, IC would be helpful. I really don't have any advice, but lots of sympathy and understanding for what you are going through.
the overwhelming sensations of anxiety, fear and sadness are familiar. Give yourself time. Grief takes a long time. Don't stuff it, go with it.
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Posts: 9544 | Registered: Nov 2010 | From: The Great White North USA
Member # 30997
| Posted: 3:24 AM, January 7th (Tuesday), 2014|
thanks folks - nice to see you again SisterMilkshake!
Just going to take time here. IC booked for Thursday. One step at a time eh?
Posts: 870 | Registered: Jan 2011
Member # 20150
| Posted: 8:30 AM, January 7th (Tuesday), 2014|
I'm so sorry velveteer, what an awful shock.
Her needs not being met, eh? Wow, her timing kind of sucks on that one.
Sometimes people show you who they really are.
You're not even divorced yet. Maybe you need to slow down and just be alone for awhile until things calm down. You're spread pretty thin.
[This message edited by FaithFool at 8:31 AM, January 7th (Tuesday)]
DDay: June 15, 2008
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Posts: 17341 | Registered: Jul 2008 | From: Canada
Member # 19946
| Posted: 10:43 AM, January 7th (Tuesday), 2014|
Wow! That is a lot to happen all at once. You really need time for yourself.
I think you will have to let your SO know that as much as you would ideally like to support her with her health issues you are simply unable to do so. She feels peripheral to your life because at this moment she kind of has to be. She might break up with you over this but she might find other sources of support for herself and wait it out to be with you more later. That's her choice and you really can't sacrifice what little time and sanity you have to take care of her on top of everything else.
I'm sorry you are in this position. I'm very sorry for the loss of your Dad. That's a huge thing. It's great that you are carving out time for IC. I wish you all the best!
BS, age 53, d-day 6-2-08, divorced after 17 years and 20 together. dating again, living in the sticks with a cat. It's taking a long time to create new dreams and a new life but it is slowly coming together.
Posts: 5798 | Registered: Jun 2008 | From: Rural California
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