Got through yesterday, he came back in the morning, I think out of duty so I wasn't on my own. I went NC with my mother earlier this year and so I had to manage my DS going to the funeral without me and finding something to do with myself. We went out and I was 180 all the way.
It seemed to drive him nuts because we were stuck in his anger and my 180.
When we got back, I started to feel bad and tried to control it. But he could see I was wobbling and that seemed to break his anger. So he wanted me to feel bad! Once I started to feel bad he was OK. Fucked up much - or normal?