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User Topic: Sometimes I hate being a single parent
dindy
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Default  Posted: 12:57 PM, November 5th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

This has been a tough evening, again.

I made dinner and again neither of my children ate theirs. DS left the table and I picked him up and put him back in his chair. This caused him to start crying which then caused my DD to start crying too.

I went outside on the balcony to get away as I'm really struggling pretending everything is ok at the moment.

After I went back in I hugged my two children and soothed them. They're are absolutely fine.

This incident has made me cry non-stop and I'm feeling like sometimes their life would be so much easier if they didn't have a depressed mother to grow up with.

I just miss not being able to hand my children over to someone in the evenings after a long day parenting on my own.

I'm also having a hard time with how ex can just walk away from us without even a fight and seem to be moving on without a care in the world.

I fel so abandoned.

I think I will try and watch a film and take my mind off things when they have gone to bed.

Sorry for the pity party. :(


Posts: 459 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: uk
abbycadabby
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Default  Posted: 1:34 PM, November 5th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((dindy)))

No advice. Just wanted you to know you're heard. Have you sought help for your depression?


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Merlin
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Default  Posted: 1:40 PM, November 5th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Single parenting is the hardest thing I have ever done.

And I wouldn't trade a minute of it.

I have made my peace with the idea that when they are older (maybe late 20s?) and they look back to see who was there for them, that they will know it was and remains me.

Everything between now and then (if then ever comes) is what I chose (without knowing I would do it alone) when we brought them into the world.

Besides, they are the most interesting people I have ever met.


"I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A bird will fall frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself." D. H. Lawrence

Her: WW/57 Me: BS/63 24yrs M
3 great kids, now 22, 20, 17 b,b,g
D-Day 8/14/08, D 1/13/11


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dindy
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Default  Posted: 2:37 PM, November 5th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you for your replies.

I've been feeling really good most of the time lately, it's just tonight has made me realise that I'm not coping too well after all.

I did go to counselling initially after DDay whilst taking prozac but I felt I didn't need to continue. This was also because I had to miss two appointment because my DD was ill and I had to pay extra for missed sessions. I have since been back for a booking in and I'm on the waiting list again.

I came off AD's in September after gradually reducing my dose and have been doing well off them.

Though now I feel like something has switched inside me and a lot of dark feelings are resurfacing again. I am going to see how I am in the morning and if necessary go and see my gp to start taking AD's again.

Another thing I'm really struggling with at the moment is that I'm really missing my ex. I know this is crazy as he is a pos who couldn't care less about me, he made that very clear.

And because of this I am questioning why he has done what he has when he isn't even with OW anyway. What was the point?

It's just a cruel way to want to leave someone and now my children and I have to pick up the pieces.


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