At least this year I'm not going trick-or-treating as a clueless idiot! Still, tough day and tough holidays ahead.
Wouldnt it have been nice if I were good enough to impress or better yet, his children.
Wouldn't it be nice if he cared to be good enough.
YOU and your children are enough, worthy enough.
This year I am going with my wonderful (new) husband and my kids. Ex will be with OW and her kids. I am perfectly okay with this.
Hang in there. It gets easier with time.
Halloween is a trigger for me. Two years ago the Saturday before Halloween sow texted me to let me know she and some other friends were at the local watering hole in heir costumes. My fwh was away for the weekend with his friends. (Texting both of us at the time.) I joined the friends and then went dancing for awhile at another location. The others went home early and left me and the barfly alone. Suddenly it felt so awkward and weird. I decided to go home myself. Two days later i found out why it felt so oogy to sit there with her. Three days later they suddenly couldn't resist temptation and he slept at her house. Luckily he was almost instantly disgusted and ended it the next day.
Take care cmc!