Well then... come along...
Let me tell you a story.
Because I have been around the block... and I have seen a thing or two.
I have seen the most remarkable things, from the most unremarkable beginnings. I have stared into the dark abyss - I have been to the edge and beyond, and I have come back again. I have been where up is down and light meets dark. I have seen good men fall, and fallen men rise. I have seen the broken redeemed, I have seen the beaten stand, and I have seen the generosity of the damned. I have seen the weak find strength and I have seen the lost find solace. I have seen where the tiny sapling stands upon the ruins of broken hills. I have seen things more important than our fears! And I have seen how dragons fly, when the coward roars.
I have found the wisdom in the mad and I have watched love triumph against all odds. I have seen beauty through strained tears. I have heard singing in absolute silence. I have seen hope give light in absolute darkness. I have witnessed the world dissolving before me very eyes until time stood still... and I have seen the world built back and time move on. I have understood things not to be believed, and I have believed things not to be understood.
I have seen so much...
But giving up?
But I canít see that.
Because for everything I have seen, there is even more that I have not. Because with every moment of every day we are free to make a choice. And each choice breeds limitless other paths to walk. A whole future which has never happened awaits. And I have seen, that even I, donít know what we are capable of. That is an infinity of potential on an exponential scale. And that is too much of you, working in your favour, to dismiss.
So wake now, little warrior...
It is time to find your remarkable.
Wake now, little warrior...
There is work to be done.
I will keep going, keep turning my face towards the light, and deep within my heart I will nurture the tiny ember of hope.
Someday, I think we'll hear again, just this song. This time, I think, we'll remember the words. When I do, I'll write them, I'd be happy to become a copyist, because against them, trying to remember them, there is only so-called poet, howling as it turns out. Not perfected, not fully descriptive, not remembering the words or the tune, just,,,trying.
I can only control myself, no one else. I do not have that kind of power.
I feel that many of us have days, months, even years that find us walking in the valley of the shadows...As long as we don't lose our hope for a better existence we are free..
Because with every moment of every day we are free to make a choice. And each choice breeds limitless other paths to walk.
THIS is the key. This is the path out of infidelity. This is what we old-timers tend to preach.
I truly believe that in each and every situation we have choices. These choices create change. This change creates new choices, giving us new options. OK Ė I fully acknowledge that when dealing with infidelity the choices arenít exciting. Itís no walk in the park making the decision to divorce or to work at forgiving this most treacherous of acts. But we come here to SI because we donít want to be where we are. We can change that by looking at our options and then acting on the option most likely to help us survive infidelity.
Because with every moment of every day we are free to make a choice
I agree, this is the key. When you lose sight ogf this, this is when you have given.
As Bigger sayes, the choices may not be great,but at least there is the choice of walking away and starting a fresh.
..for some reason, after reading your post, I connected it to the approach of Remembrance Day and the devastation left on the battlefields of Europe.. the destruction and hopelessness and death all around as the brave men and women forged on thru the darkness of those horrific times..
..there was 'no giving up' then.. the hopes for peace and better times emerged.. and won!
..the same fears, pain and suffering after 9-11 in the hearts and minds of a world pitched into that darkness, only to rise up again into that light you speak of.. that rebuilding of hope for a new and better world.
..we all must never lose sight of that "infinity of potential" you speak of, that we all 'have work to be done' and we all 'must never give up'
..i continue to search for my own path on this unexpected journey, to find a light out of my darkness.
Posts like yours give me that hope i so desperately need; that peace of mind that so far, has elluded me.
I will not give up the search, i will not remain in this darkness forever!
I will survive.
May we all survive this battle, this war, this brutal attack of the heart.