I guess I will drag myself into the bathroom and get 'dolled up' for work. If anything I'm sure it will make me feel better, still exhausted, but a little more like 'me' again.
I'm the one who was always showered, dressed, make up and hair done, and ready to face to world by 6am. Now, there are days where I skip all of it. The highlight of my day is the coffee in the morning, and bed at night.
I know we have the power to take this part of us back, I just wish I had the energy to find it.
You know what would be great... a thread here, where we could come back every day, for the motivation, and kick in the a$$ we need, to get ourselves moving. One where we didn't discuss the A's, but instead we supported each other to get up and start living again.
I got myself all ready for work and I realized how long my hair is. He loved my hair long and sadly this is something I'm now thinking of changing. He also loves it when my hair is red, I'm a natural brunette, I have come to hate my red hair. Looks like a cut and color is in my near future
I think it helps to gain back who WE want to be. For me to respect myself, I dress and change my looks for what I like. If I catered to his fantasy, I think I'd never feel like it was truly me he wanted.
Sometimes I feel like he was in some stupid delusional land where he thought he was fucking the old me.
[This message edited by suposd2btheonly1 at 4:32 PM, October 4th (Friday)]