So last Monday I returned to work after being off for 6 months on maternity leave. It has been a very tough week for not only me but my husband as well. My AP still works there although I haven't seen him since being back.
My husband has been triggering a lot since I have been back there. I try and help him in any way I can. I have been keeping in contact with him as much as I can.
Right now I work afternoons, which is until midnight. I was thinking of telling work that I can't work afternoons anymore because of a few reasons. Them being 1) Every time I work afternoons I have to catch a cab home which is already starting to add up 2) I don't see our daughter much at all. I see her to the bus stop in the morning to school and then I don't see her until the next morning. That is starting to get to me and we think that might be a reason why she is starting to act up a bit now and 3) My husband is having a bit of a rough time being home with both kids at night time because the baby is at a stage right now where is always wants to be held and played with and our daughter is also needing that attention. So I would be here at night to help with the kids and bed time and everything like that.
Here is where the dilemma is, my AP usually works days. And if I work days, I would be there the same time he is. I still to this day have NC with him and can't even recall the last time I saw him. I know it would be hard for my husband if I worked days and being there the same time as my AP. I am just trying to figure out what to do and what is best for my family.
I am just not sure what to do right now. Should I stay working afternoons or switch to mornings?
Also I am going back to school in December so I will pretty much only be working on Saturdays and Holidays. I know that he will feel a whole lot better when I am gone from there all together.
Not really a point to this, just wanted to share some feelings.