Really struggling tonight. Saw my kids for the first time last night. She's denied all visitation thus far. I know she got her summons for orders for temporary custody today.
I met her and the kids at a local restaraunt (she won't allow unsupervised visits). The kids came back to the house to see the cat. When they left they broke down crying. They didn't want to leave. It tore me up.
She probably felt something but I didn't see it. She has emotionally destroyed all of us. I was pissed at her that day which I prefer to the sad emptiness. Now I'm back to wanting to beg her to come back. I'm sad and terrified about the future. Can't hold back the tears.