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User Topic: A real bad few days
AlwaysBeenStrong
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Default  Posted: 6:27 PM, September 17th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I have had some really emotionally down days the past few days. I guess I am still feeling the qweeziness from the roller coaster ride I have been through for the past month.

We were separated for about 3 weeks. Once he seen I was getting stronger and wanted nothing from him (except what he promised to do around the house...it's his mother's home technically so I refuse to cut the large lawn with a broken lawnmower). He wanted back and was really remorseful and empathetic since the confession. I believed him and said ok.

During this week, I had gone to the dr's to see if I was std free. Well I had told her of some symptoms that I was experiencing and she wanted to treat me for a bacteria, which I could only get from him. Of course this was a huge argument, he didn't do anything but a bj and it was impossible I got it from him. (come to find out there was no bacteria in the first place...thank you gyno!) A few days later when his check didn't add up to the hours he was gone, I questioned him. Come to find out he was asked to go home one day and never came home, only to lead me to believe he was working...A LIE...he had lied for 3 years straight. Well needless to say, I went crazy...never went this crazy before...ending with a half door being broken and screamed at him like I have never done before.

I screwed up the last opportunity for us to ever reconcile. That's all I ever truly wanted. Just feeling really down and the tears can't stop flowing.

I am getting sick and tired of hearing I am a strong person when I am nothing but weak. I guess I should take up acting, because I am so good at it. I feel like I just made 20 steps back from where I was just 2 weeks ago...moving on.

I am having a very hard time even being in the home and financially I have no where else to go. Everywhere I look, I just see my failed marriage and the pain. I am having a hard time studying (full time student atm) and I can't stop dwelling on it.

My son moved out basically the same time he did and my daughter who is 18, just doesn't want to spend time with me. All my close friends are not close at all and I don't really have a support system, besides reading on SI.

Just feeling very alone in a house that used be filled with happiness and people.



BW: 41 (me)
Divorced soon.
Moving forward.
Pre Nursing Student
Getting a Do over at 42

Posts: 125 | Registered: Jul 2013 | From: Lonelyville
Simple
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Default  Posted: 6:41 PM, September 17th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Not your fault. Again NOT YOUR FAULT.

R takes TWO people. You didn't screw anything up. HE DID.

Make sure that your kids understand that this is between you and their Dad, and that it's not their fault. Ask them to be patient because you need a lot of help right now to heal from what happened. They are old enough.

Hugs your way.


Love is a choice.

True love is harder to come by than soul mates. True love requires work.

Ignorance can be cured with knowledge. There is no cure for being an idiot.


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sullymeishadomi
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Default  Posted: 8:23 PM, September 17th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((Always)).

You did not ruin your chance for R, your h killed that by lying where he was when he led you to believe he was working. Please do not accept the blame of someone else's wrong doing. As simple wrote, it takes 2 people to R

Let go of the fight. Concentrate on you.

Some of us here know the pain and frustration that comes with losing friends wbo high tale it during difficult times. Its better they leave now because they have shown how little their friendship means.

Eventually, you will make new friends.

If you dont have IC, now would be a good time to look for one.

Be good to yourself.

((Hugs))


People tell you exactly who they are...why expect them to be what they are not ....will be divorcing the selfish creep.

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AlwaysBeenStrong
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Default  Posted: 10:10 PM, September 17th (Tuesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks for the responses ladies.

Yes I do have IC going, but going bi-weekly atm...financial constraints and wouldn't you know all this crap happens when Friday seems so far away.

My day was totally turned around and it became better with good grade. It was a reminder you are destined for something greater


BW: 41 (me)
Divorced soon.
Moving forward.
Pre Nursing Student
Getting a Do over at 42

Posts: 125 | Registered: Jul 2013 | From: Lonelyville
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