Topic: I'm back
Member # 21101
| Posted: 1:30 PM, September 6th (Friday), 2013|
EZ I think you know the answer to that question.
You won't be able to trust ever again.
Lets face it, most of us who went through the shitstorm, and come out R on the other side, know that if it were ever to happen again we'd be gone.
I know that I love my H, and I know he loves me, but if for some reason that crazy switch ever got turned back on that would be it I would done. I also know, and you do too, that we would be absolutlely fine.
Life is short, do you want to spend the rest of it second guessing yourself, your spouse? I get what you are saying abou the dogs, I do. Just be thankful that it's just dogs, and not kids. I am of firm belief that everything happens for a reason. This is your chance to decide what is next. The world lays before you. What you do with it is totally up to you.
Kids: 14 & 16
Married for 21 years now, was 16 at the time. .
D-Day Sept 26 2008
Fully R'd, and Happy Happy Happy
Posts: 6010 | Registered: Oct 2008 | From: St. Louis
Member # 20563
| Posted: 2:20 PM, September 6th (Friday), 2013|
((Erzulie)) remember you as we'll. I totally understand the doggie mom thoughts.
Him- FWS (I hope- F)
Posts: 6157 | Registered: Aug 2008 | From: Not Oz
Member # 99
| Posted: 2:56 PM, September 7th (Saturday), 2013|
Erzulie, bumping to see how you are???
"Anyone perfect must be lying; anything easy has its cost. Anyone plain can be lovely; anyone loved can be lost." Barenaked Ladies
Posts: 2358 | Registered: Jun 2002 | From: North Carolina
Member # 3293
| Posted: 5:17 PM, September 7th (Saturday), 2013|
Thank you so much for checking on me.
I am not doing well. My head hurts so bad, I can barely stand up or function. I know it is dehydration related ... I don't remember ever crying this much before. I have avoided alcohol entirely and just had a little coffee this morning ... and trying to drink a lot of fluids. Zero interest in food. And, my boobs ache. Maybe my hormones are mourning, too?
My emotions are all over the map.
Physically, I feel like a bomb went off in my heart. Nothing else is working properly.
I have to find a way to get my headache under control. And I know I need to eat, but I am so nauseous.
I want to call my mom, but I just can't.
A saying for my SI Family: "We may not have it all together, but together we have it all".
Fooled twice - almost exactly 10 years apart.
Posts: 3373 | Registered: Jan 2004 | From: California
Member # 40166
| Posted: 5:57 PM, September 7th (Saturday), 2013|
Oh my God, I'm so sorry. So, so sorry. I'm in tears for you.
I'm a (relative) newbie and I just find your story so heartbreaking.
I hope you can get some more fluids in you and kick the headache. You're so not alone.
M: 15 years
4 lovely daughters
Working to rebuild.
Posts: 743 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: Canada
Member # 1330
| Posted: 7:03 PM, September 7th (Saturday), 2013|
Can someone call your mom for you? I will--PM me and I can do it right away.
Your headache is likely dehydration and lack of food. Try and get something down. Regular Coca-Cola is always good--it tends to "de-nauseate."
FBS: Married 20 years, 2 daughters 25 and 22. Divorced by the grace of GOD.
D-Days: 2/23/93; 10/11/97; 3/5/03
Ex & OW Broke up 12-10
"An erection does not count as personal growth."
Posts: 29434 | Registered: Apr 2003 | From: Massachusetts
Member # 10468
| Posted: 11:08 AM, September 11th (Wednesday), 2013|
I'm so sorry, Erzulie
Please sip some water or gatorade. Your headache is making everything else seem worse. When you feel better you will have a different outlook.
I was so sad to see your post
Ddays 2004 & 2007
I cut my losses mid 2013
Feeling happier every day :)
Posts: 5935 | Registered: Apr 2006 | From: Florida
Member # 26970
| Posted: 11:22 AM, September 11th (Wednesday), 2013|
..may i gently suggest that you follow your instincts and call your MOM.. that's what moms are for..
..hope you can lose the headache as well..
trust no other human- love only your pets
She isn't and never was who I thought..I can't believe who I married and what she did to us.
Married 41 yrs (together 47)
18 yr LTA with bf
Posts: 3933 | Registered: Dec 2009 | From: the sad state of affairs
Member # 14576
| Posted: 11:50 AM, September 11th (Wednesday), 2013|
Sweetie, can you call your doctor? He/she may be able to give you something to help you along for this horrid anxiety. I know how it feels to have a lump in your tummy and throat so great you can't get anything down.
I am so sorry
Me - 48; FWH - 50
Married 30 years 9/2/13
2 grown daughters-30 & 26
4yo GS & 14 mo. GD & GB #4 due 8/14(DD30) and 2yo GD(DD26). D-day #1 - 1/06; D-day #2 - 3/07
Reconciled! Construction Complete.
Posts: 4728 | Registered: May 2007
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