maybe it's time for Sperm Donor to pay more than $58.00 a week.
He pays $65 a MONTH, not week and he told social services he is unemployed and makes money under the table to avoid an increase while his mommy ponies up the rest....
I think on the thrifty side of things I do pretty well. I get my daughter (and my clothes) pretty much ALL 2nd hand and most of her toys too. She doesn't know the difference and I save a lot of money. Although I rarely buy myself any clothes at all. Most of my clothes are probably 8 to 10 years old.... I'm the last on my list when it comes to extra things like that.... (which is probably why my self-esteem is plumetting a bit....) I feel so frumpy and NOT-put-together when I go to work everyday.... I would kill for a makeover.....I feel like I've aged exponentially in the last 2 years after having my daughter.... its insane!
The depression thing is probably true. My IC is just a regular therapist and she doesn't prescribe medication (and doesn't believe in it either....she thinks that you can overcome anything without it..... one of those naturalist types) so I would need to go to my regular doctor for any meds. I've dealt with depression before during my divorce and when I was 100 pounds heavier as a teenager....so its definitely not a new thing for me.
[This message edited by She11ybeanz at 5:52 AM, September 1st (Sunday)]
ME - BW - 34
HIM - XWH - 38
D day: November 15th, 2009
Married: 5 Years, together 8
Divorced: December 13th, 2010
New Beginning: Piper/8-3-12
I am so sorry to hear about everything and have read your postings about trying to save money for a while. I feel your struggle.
and can relate to it to a point (i guess my situation is better as i dont struggle for basics, but still was very depressed with some of the livestyle loss).
Not sure if it would work for you, but this is what worked for me..
I was like you - looking where to cut, what to cut etc. Inflation grown, my salary remained, bills got higher and mainting the lifestyle i wanted more and more difficult.
So, at some point i just changed my thinking about it and stopped focusing on cutting costs (as i was at the level where i felt i cannot cut anymore). and focused on making more money.
so, i got into some of the business ventures. which with a 4yr old, full time job etc is not the easiest thing to do (granted i have live in help). now these things are starting to come to fruiting (not there yet, but give me 4- 6 months and it will bring considerable profit)..
so maybe this would work for you as well - maybe you can do some freelance work on a side (not sure what are your qualififications). or vene teach english some foreign students etc.
its not easy, but when i started - it was hard work (still is), but depression was lifted as i could see the light at the end of the tunnel.
lets face it - the older kids get the more money you will beed to support them. so sooner or later you will need to get more income..
just think of ways you could make money..
They do if from their home. You can see them out in the neighborhood drawing on sidewalks, or on the deck while their kids play nearby.
I used to watch yard sales and would buy high end kids clothes cheap, then either sell them on Ebay or take to a resell shop and double my money.
I would also contact a bankruptcy attorney and see what your options are, it can't hurt!
Don't give up.
1. I'm a senior accountant (not a teacher) and I don't know what the aftermath would be if I filed bankruptcy. Would I lose my job? Do I need to even tell my job? I guess I feel like it looks pretty bad on me to file which is why I've been trying so very hard not to. That's why I went through a debt consolidation company to try to pay off my credit cards but I still have about 3-4 years to go.....
2. Would my XWH find out since his name is on a couple of my student loans? WHO would find out? My pride comes in the way and I don't know how I would be able to handle telling people about having to do that (i.e. applying for jobs (would I not get hired as an accountant with that on my record?) dating someone new.... how do you eventually tell someone that? etc....
I don't know how to make extra money doing what I do except maybe during tax season (even though I'm not a tax accountant....)
UGH....I just don't know what to do.
[This message edited by She11ybeanz at 9:02 AM, September 2nd (Monday)]
WHO should know are questions to ask a bankruptcy attorney. Court proceedings are a matter of public record.
I have an accounting single mom friend who had to file bankruptcy after divorce. Her ex ruined their credit. Her Dad had to sign the loan for her house, but she has a good job working from home. She is applying for new jobs right now, so as far as I know, it hasn't affected her ability to find employment.
I was so relieved after I went to my appointment. I decided not to file, as a couple of things changed, but they gave me great advice on a lot of things, and I knew what my options were. POWERFUL feeling!
I was also helped greatly by Debtors Anonymous. It's a program to put first things first -- which is living! They help you when you plan a spending plan which incidentally puts YOU first. House, food, clothing, utilities, THEN other debt is divided up. It teaches you how to live, really live, and the weekly meetings help your mental state and keep the ball rolling. It's free.
The book "How to get out of Debt, stay out of debt and live prosperously" goes along with the program. (library might have) Since you have a good income, I think you'll relate to the book very well and get alot out of it.
Page 66 says "It's not armageddon. You owe some people some money, that's all. No missles are going to be launched, you aren't going to be shot at dawn, Blood isn't running in the streets, you arent' going to be drug thru the streets and pelted with garbage. You owe some people some money, that's all". Even if you don't follow his plan, I really think the common sense, uplifting nature of the book will get your thinking on a new path... and actions always follow our thoughts.
Please don't think I am saying you purposely got into debt and need this....When I read your first line..
All I do is worry. Constantly.
I immediately thought about the book I recommended because the living properously isn't just about finances, it's having a life with you and your daughter. If you read the book now,,,,you will not be where I am at 53!
[This message edited by homewrecked2011 at 11:23 AM, September 2nd (Monday)]
post on local notice boards advertising of services for example..
I think you should try and look for a small company that needs an accountant/bookkeeper. Something you could do at nights and on the weekends.
Meantime try and supplement your income through babysitting. Seriously a couple of Nights on the weekends will pay for the speeding tickets.
Hang in there..you will survive this.
The depression thing is probably true. My IC is just a regular therapist and she doesn't prescribe medication (and doesn't believe in it either....she thinks that you can overcome anything without it.....
Shelly IMHO I would be finding a new therapist, because she should know the depression is an actual illness it is a chemical imbalance in the brain, it's not something you are just going to get over. Would she be telling a diabetic don't worry about taking insulin you can get over it!
Please go and see your doctor about this.
I am sorry you find yourself in such a desperate situation. I really hope you can get some advice about bankruptcy and find some help or something that will help ease the burden for you right now.
((Shelly)) I know it's hard, I promise it won't always be this way though.
I've already sold so much that I love....and I've been trying so hard not to sell these but I don't know what to do. Have any of you ever had to do anything like that?
What I really want is to not have to worry every month about whether I am going to afford rent or not.
And I agree with Bluebird about a new therapist. Some times we can exercise and eat better and alleviate our depression that way, but sometimes the chemical imbalance is too high and meds are necessary. If you have tried the other things and they are not working, you probably need the meds. (I'm thinking about them myself for the first time in my life).
Question... I have been doing a lot of research and even though the main consensus is that you can't discharge student loan debt...there is a caveat that says that if you can prove undue hardship that it is possible to discharge it or reduce it! Have you ever heard of this? I thought about bringing this up to a lawyer if I go to see one about it. But, I wonder what would happen if I tried.... and my XWH is a co-signor on a couple of the loans? Could he sue me?
Well..I just realized I probably can't prove undue hardship unless I was unemployed. You pretty much have to be living under a bridge for you to get student loan debt discharged...
[This message edited by She11ybeanz at 9:54 AM, September 3rd (Tuesday)]
I have (and kept) my car, and some other assets. They do not make you get rid of anything. I had to sell some of my stocks in order to "qualify" for bankruptcy, but I did so gladly figuring I could reinvest once I was in a better position in a few years.
When XH left I sold everything - jewelry, our timeshare, whatever I could to make ends meet. There comes a point where you just can't sell anymore, and when it comes down to it you need a certain quality of life for your child too.
BK is a public record, so technically anyone can find out. It's reported on your credit report. Will it affect your opportunity to get a job? Probably not. I can't remember if that question has come up on a job application.
Who should you tell? It's no one's business unless you want it to be. As for potential suitors, I wouldn't bother telling them unless you think it's going to get serious. At this point I think it's the least of your concerns.
My BK cost me $1,600 and I worked out a payment plan. They tell you to stop making any and all payments to your creditors. If you do that, you'll have the money for the lawyer in no time.
I'm willing to bet that you qualify. I make a pretty decent salary on paper but with all of my expenses I was literally underwater at the end of every month. It can't hurt to have a consultation.
To get a future job it may effect that ... my job ran a credit report on me before they would hire me. A lot of places do.
I had bad credit when I came here, so I typed out a formal letter stating what had happened, what I did about it and how long it would take me to get out of it.
I gave it to the people who interviewed me and HR. I got hired! Be honest ... always be honest! UPFRONT. It makes you look like a rockstar.
Because in my situation I didn't know if I was the OW at first or if I was being cheated on. Found I was being cheated on.