You no doubt had some issues in your marriage. We all do. They will begin to dissect the problems until they find a couple they can spin. They start saying that they’ve been unhappy for years. That they’ve been just hiding it so as not to hurt you or the kids. You don’t understand them or their needs. They lace just enough truth into their story to knock you off balance. You start questioning your marriage. Were they really that unhappy and you weren’t sensitive enough to their feelings to see it? Did you somehow miss their desperate cry for love and attention? You start to feel some responsibility for their actions. You start to question everything.
They have to find a way to make themselves not the villain of their own story. I believe they actually come to believe their new story. They start to tell “their side of the story” to garner sympathy and weaken your position. Their family and friends start to have some empathy for them. Poor selfless, unfulfilled, martyred little muffin. They just couldn’t help but fall into the waiting vagina of OW. (Or fall onto the penis of OM)
And we start to fall for it too. Why? Because we need some logic or reason for how they could hurt us like this. This can’t be the person we fell in love with. That person would be incapable of this kind of cruelty. And so our confusion adds to their sense of victimization. If we leave, then they can just walk away and keep using the new truth to justify their behavior. If we stay, they can keep using this ammunition to keep us from demanding full disclosure, transparency and IC. If we are willing to shoulder some of the blame, they won’t have to work so hard. They won’t have to look inside and find out the true WHY.
D-Day June 12th 2008, D-Day #2 Sept 28th
D-Day #3 Feb 15th & 16th 2010, D-Day #4 Nov 29th 2010
This certainly speaks to me.
They can lie all they want. They think they are helping themselves, but now the lies prevent anyone from helping them. The lies only hurt them.
There is always something underlying that makes people act this way. And they need to address and be honest so their family and friends can help them.
My IC told me the only way that my WH will begin to get better is to first admit to his sex addiction (in my case). He hasn't even admitted it. She says that for someone who has an addiction, they will continue to lie until someone becomes the "bell ringer".
She suggested the idea of telling him family and friends the truth, so that they will not be bought into his lies and actually a very troubled, disturbed and broken man heal.
But, SA is different from drug, alcohol or gambling addiction as it only 'seems' to affect just the person in the relationship and the kids. What are his buddies going to say, "gosh, stop watching all that porn. Prostitutes are bad!"
To them, it's just sex. To them, it's just our relationship and its none of their business. Which it's not. The prostitutes, the porn, the soliciting, it doesn't affect the family and friends.
But what the family and friends done realize is this man, who is saying "oh woe is me, my darn wife doesn't know how to communicate, and she kicked me out!" (Never mind the 50+ prostitutes he paid during this year alone), they don't realize that he is doing this because he is seriously depressed, lost, overwhelmingly sad, self-destructive. And it's not bc of me.
There's always something deeper and darker hidden in their head that caused this. And if they really cared for the WS, they would want to know the truth to truly help their friend, brother, son, whatever.
They just think that "we don't want the same thing in our marriage." Well, I guess we don't. I don't want my husband having sex with strangers or cheating on me!
In my case, WH is using the re-write to justify his not getting help for the SA. If we aren't together, then there isn't anything wrong with his behavior. So he'd rather lose the marriage than learn how to cope with the disease. And this is from a guy with 22 years sobriety who is a worshipper of all things AA! But he just can't see the parallel here. And he is using this as an excuse to avoid AA as well. So, he's a dry drunk and a dry adulterer.
He even admits that he is falling into addict behavior without drinking. But he still uses the re-write to justify not addressing the issue.
I hope he does go back to AA. We don't have any SA groups or CSATs here so AA is all he's got. But I hope he goes back. And if he does, someday down the road he will acknowledge (at least to himself) that I wasn't a horrible wife and that we DID want the same things. But it will probably be too late for me.
They can rewrite history all they want, throw the blame around, take the heat off of them and they will still suffer inside.
These people who are dishonest with themselves and others, SA or not, are suffering inside and will continue to suffer.
Their family and friends who either don't want to be involved or are not privy to the real information, will allow that person to die inside.
I very much distrust my WH. I very much don't care if he suffers and destroys himself.
But I would think the people who do still care about him would not want him to destroy himself. But then, maybe if they knew the truth, maybe they wouldn't want anything to do with him either. Hence, the reason he lies, to keep his family and friends from not disowning him, which keeps him doing what he's doing, and no one helping him get help.
Hey...how about instead of lying, how about admitting what you did was wrong, don't shift blame and STOP DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING! GET HELP!
Perv fits this category and puts me in a little box labeled with descriptive words or phrases that he changes when he needs to.
It's all about him and if it's about me, how absolutely horrible I was and it goes on and on... yet, there is evidence to the contrary not only about that but about his own life that he talks down about now and it's sad to see the influence of OW and the other people there on him.
He took this to some other levels, as well. One thing he did was to try to convince at least one counselor against me and some other things. He tried at one point to get our children to go with him and be removed from me and there were some other things he did, besides the cheating, which is bad enough.
The problem is that sometimes it is done in such a way, the rewriting, that it messes with our heads...he did those things to me, but then went out in "society" and lied to anyone who would listen to him, to gain their sympathy away from me and for himself and OW.
Yes, as I read your post over, CM, he also said other things you did, like he was not happy for years-yet there is a magnitude of evidence, from pictures to children, a house and so much more.
It's sad for me to think of what people throw away.
And I've often said lately that in some ways I wish he could have just cheated and go away-but he's still causing damage to people who touch his life and I can't clean up the messes fast enough anymore.
And yes, you question your marriage, your life, your values...your-self.
The times, they are'a changin'! -Bob Dylan
My knight in shining armor turned out to be nothing more than a little boy playing dress-up.
BS 26, WS 29. D after D-Day#2, False R, M, and a lot of regret. Hate that douche.