[This message edited by Imessedup97 at 4:35 PM, August 19th (Monday)]
It's good to have you with us, it takes a lot of courage to post about your failures.
Have you told your H everything? Do not trickle truth things out to him, you're not sparing him by doing that, it only prolongs healing and rebuilding.
Everything is a process, so don't try to rush things. Your H will be spinning out of control with his feelings for quite some time...be patient and compassionate. And be honest about anything he asks you
"I'm happily indifferent to the ones who have consistently been wrong" ~kd lang~
Its important to come completely clean ASAP if you haven't already. Complete honesty about everything, even non related to A is an essential first step.
Be prepared this is a long painful journey! This is a good 1st step.