Oh, and I have been 180ing his @$$ for the past hmmmm several days. Wow, he is calling and texting and emailing. Me, nada nada nada.
[This message edited by StillLivin at 5:21 PM, August 15th (Thursday)]
married 2y, together 2.5y
1 beautiful daughter, 23m
"Someday soon, I'm going to put my life together; Win or lose, I'm starting over again."
But I'm learning to love me more and quit enabling him.
Oh, and thank you, everybody!
Aching, but not tormented inside!
180 is my new best friend. I read it several times a day and check each item.
But, honestly, I don't feel very strong right now.
Right now I've had a big big fall, and I'm just getting up.
I'm still working towards dusting myself off.
Deep down, I've always had my self worth, I put it in a box and closed the drawer. I thought putting up with his shit was what a good wife was supposed to do.
It took finding out about the affair before I finally started looking at the whole situation in the right light. And, that was, what was HE doing to be a good h.
The first 2 years, he was truly a great h. He lost his daughter, spiraled into a massive depression. When he came out, he wasn't the same person anymore. I made excuses for him and tried to "stand by my man".
Thing was, he was dragging me further and further into crazy land.
I'm not strong, but I'm gonna get back up there some day!