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User Topic: My letter to OW
niaveone
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Default  Posted: 10:17 AM, August 15th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

This letter has been a work-in-progress since DDay1 (one year ago). Never sent it, but boy it felt good to get it all out:


When WS and you started "texting", you encouraged each otherís craziness, compulsion, selfishness and ego-driven destruction. He became a shell of the man he was, though this began to happen years ago and I do not fully blame you. I do not even blame him totally either. We both had life's problems that were stronger than our resolve to keep our marriage strong. I own my part in THAT. I do know, however, that he was struggling and he had drifted from our family, but never did I believe he would resort to another woman, though I no longer consider you that. I see you more as a troll.

I know you commiserated with each other, lamented about your lives and found solace in each otherís open dialogue and support. Whatever. You supported each other with delusion and empty souls. You thought of no one but yourselves and your twisted, demented desires. I hold him equally responsible, and have discussed this at length with him. Iím sure weíll be talking about this for quite a while. You both took your spouses, your vows, your promises with people who loved and respected you (at least in my case-I understand your marriage was already struggling or over, though I imagine this contributed to its demise) and disregarded them. You lost any and all integrity you ever had, not that you had much apparently, by the noise in *hometown* I've heard since this has all come to light. You are known as a troll, you are known as an attention seeking whore, who uses her job to seek out married men who may eventually "save you" from the misery of the "marriage" you helped create. I don't have any pity for you, although I know you got WS to feel it for you. For that I will always hate you. He used to be a man I couldnít bitch about with my girlfriends because he was the most honest, integrity-filled, respectable man I knew. Everyone was jealous of the me because of the amazing man I was married to. You, OW, you helped him disintegrate into a lying, cheating, broken boy. For that I will always hate you.

The fact that you chased after a married man tells me of your true nature and character. You had no problem not only breaking the hearts of your own kids time and time again, but attempting to break up a family with innocent *girls* no less. My girls. Girls that do not ever need to know their father got messed up with the likes of you. Girls that have blessed hearts. Innocent hearts. Loving and forgiving hearts. Hearts that are one day going to break because we are going to have to explain to them what happened and who it happened with since the whole town knows. Innocence lost. And you didn't give a damn.

The fact that he participated showed me sides of him I didnít think possible. WS lied to me for nearly a year. Then lied to me AGAIN. At one point the first time around, before I even had any inkling of you, I begged him for a divorce and he got angry. Accused me of having an affair. Then promised he would work with me to do better putting us first. All the while having you in "his back pocket". Disgusting. The rot and destruction you encouraged him to create has now littered our home and family. Your filth, deceit and foul-soul has affected innocent people, to which you have not a care in the world that you messed with. As long as OW got what OW wanted to hell with anyone else.
WS needed a change. That's what you said to him. What change do you have, OW? As soon as WS dumped you *again* you ran right back to *your STBEXH*. You didn't love WS. You loved the fact that WS made a good paycheck. You loved the fact that WS loved you (or who you portrayed yourself to be). You loved the fact that you were a "bad ass" doing something forbidden. You loved the fact that you were taking something *better* from someone else, because that would mean you were worthy of the *better*. You aren't. You are a bottom feeder. You are a troll. You need constant attention, and constant adoration. WS would have eventually not been able to give you the attention you needed because the newness would have faded and he would go back to being the broken person you found across your counter at your job. Then what? Because a person that screwed around *with* him, would eventually screw around *on* him. Because THAT, OW, is the person you are.

Period.


And even in his broken state, he deserves more than that. He deserves the person who loved him when he worked at the fast food place in college. He deserves that person that knows all the little things he could never bring himself to say, they broke him so...that person loves him *more* because of those things. That person BELIEVES in him because that person knows what he is capable of and knows what an amazing person he wants to be again. That person knows this WS. The one you *think* you know, is not the real WS. It's the confused WS. It's the empty WS. It's the desperate WS. That's the WS you met and that's the WS you caught. That's not the WS the true WS wants to be. The true WS is the one I *used* to know and that's the WS I love more than life itself. *I* am the person that truly loves WS. The real WS. The WS I don't even think WS can see right now, or the WS he has ever seen. But I have. He deserves me. I am much more than anything you could ever give him. You just aren't capable. So leave him alone.

If you do ANYTHING for ANYONE other than yourself, do this. Leave him alone. Because being with you has helped destroy him, not help him. You are poison to him. That anyone can see.


Me: BS
Him: WS
Married: 16 years
2 children
2 DDays

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Skan
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Default  Posted: 2:09 PM, August 15th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm glad that you are using this letter to vent all of the things that you wanted and needed to say. It's cathardic to get it all out, to just vomit it forth, as it were. Great decision on not sending it bottom feeders can't lift themselves out of the muck enough to actually have anything moral penetrate, which is why they always reek of the mud.


Imagine a ship trying to set sail while towing an anchor. Cutting free is not a gift to the anchor. You must release that burden, not because the anchor is worthy, but because the ship is.

D-Day, June 10, 2012



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Broken6
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Default  Posted: 11:53 PM, September 6th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Your letter is so well written. All the advice I got was to not contact OW. I wrote a scathing email. I kept it for about a month, and the decided to hit send. Why shouldn't she know how her inserting herself into my marriage caused me a great deal of pain, and pain for my children. Why should that whore get a free pass. Just crap all over someone and walk away and sleep like a baby at night. I hate what she did to us, my family. She knew he was married and had 4 kids. She even has a kid of her own. Unfit mother to be sure. I applaud your strength to write but not send. I sent mine in a weak moment. She even replied, said she was sorry and was no longer in his life- this turned out to be a lie because it was still going on. We had a second D-Day 2 months later. I don't know why I would expect the truth out of someone who engaged in deceit from the start. Anyway, I don't regret sending mine, but little good it did. I find peace in thinking that she knows what she is, a whore, and one day she will be judged for her behavior by God. Or maybe karma will step in. I hear karma can be a bitch. Sure hope she is. Anyway - your letter is really good, very expressive. Well done. Hugs sorry you ever had to write it.


The grass isn't greener on the other side, it is greener where you water it.

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