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User Topic: Sharing with others
jumabl
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Default  Posted: 10:27 AM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I have told two people about the affair. A very good friend who I knew would be understanding and not over dramatic, and my counselor. I can't bring myself to tell others about it. It would explain my behavior at the moment but in the end, I feel like I would look like a victim and he a monster.
We are doing very well with talking and opening up to each other but I'm still cancelling social dates because my emotions are on my sleeve.
What I don't want is to have verbal diarrhea and regret it later.


Me:31
Him:32
D-Day 8/3/13

Posts: 20 | Registered: Aug 2013
LosferWords
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Default  Posted: 10:45 AM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

((jumabl))

I can very much relate. Outside of my counselor, I have only told one friend that I have known since high school, and it turns out his wife had an affair on him also. The thing that kept running through my head was, "Once you tell somebody, you can't untell them."

On the other hand, there are a lot of members here who were very open about telling people, and that was an integral part of their healing.

There are both good points and bad points to either side. What it comes down to is whatever you are more comfortable with.

Hang in there, and take care.


Posts: 7543 | Registered: Dec 2010
cantaccept
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Default  Posted: 1:11 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

hi,

I can only give you my experience. My 1st therapist, 1st week after dday and my husband had left me for ow, told me to tell everyone. She said it was not my shame to bear and that by keeping his secret I was basically protecting him and shaming myself.

In retrospect, I understand that she thought that I needed support, wherever I could find it.

I also learned as the weeks went by that to talk about any chance of reconciliation with her was not acceptable. She would lash out and humiliate me.

I didn't try to hide it from anyone, I don't think I could have. I could barely function and at work, it I hadn't told them, they probably would have thought I was drinking or doing drugs, I was a zombie.

Now that h and I are trying to reconcile, I have feelings of shame and embarrassment and find myself reluctant to let others know.

I guess his behavior was so extreme and cruel after dday it makes me feel like I gave in tooo easily?

Anyway, the support during the months alone was great, helped me to survive. Having so many people know now, it's difficult.

I have told h, if in the beginning, on dday, if he had been remorseful, had not left me for her, I probably would not have told anyone.

At the time I believed he was gone forever. I believed that in order to do what he did, he must truly love her and he would build a life with her.

I guess caution would be the course. Although if h had been cautious we never would have had to deal with this.


"So often times it happens, that we live our lives in chains and we never even know we have the key"

I would now like to be known as Can!

dday October 21,2012
dday December 20, 2013
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attempted R, it was all a lie

Divor


Posts: 1425 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: Connecticut
simplydevastated
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Default  Posted: 1:22 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I made the choice not to tell anyone, because in the beginning I thought we could R and I didn't want anyone to judge either one of us or strain his relationships with my family.

Once it became clear that there was no choice for R I told my best friend since High School and I almost had a nervous breakdown once and had no choice be to tell my mother. Both of them should get an Oscar because you can not tell that they know.

I told my Cousin this past January when my Aunt was dying because I was a mess and she could tell that there was something else wrong. I do regret telling her because it ended up her bashing him which is something I don't need. I can do that just fine on my own.

The last person I told was my neighbor. It definitely fell under the "diarrhea of the mouth." I sort of regret telling her, but I know she understands.

It's hard to know if you should/can tell someone and what their reaction will be. You just have to decide how much of your personal life you want to make public. Also, the more people you tell the more you risk them telling other people about your personal business regardless if you ask them to keep it to themselves.

(((HUGS)))


Me - BS, 39 (I'm not old...I'm vintage)
Two Wonderful children - DS10, DD7
Married, for now... (4+ D-Day - listed in profile.)

Posts: 5854 | Registered: Jul 2009 | From: In the darkest depths of hell!
PrincessPeach06
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Default  Posted: 2:06 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I didn't have a choice because WS told everyone! I probably would have stayed holed up in the house forever but it was wonderful to have the support!! I honestly don't care what people think or if they judge, that's their own problem. I just hold my head up because I know I'm beautiful and smart and damn strong. :)


Me (BS): 35
Him (fWS): 36
Married 16 years 6 kids ages 15-6
DDay #1 (EA) July '08
DDay #2 (EA/ONS- different OW) May 15, 2013

Finally this is R 8/14/13

"Forgiving is a journey; the deeper the wound, the longer the journey".


Posts: 299 | Registered: Jun 2013
Healing2012
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Default  Posted: 2:20 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I didn't tell anyone for two months. Looking back, I can't believe I lasted that long. It made for a very lonely existence.

I eventually told a very close friend, but that was it. I was ashamed and didn't want to be judged for trying to make things work.

D-Day was about 18 months ago and I have told more people. For me it wasn't about "outing" him. It was about getting the courage to say those words ("My H had an A"). Sharing this information is a personal decision. It helped me come to terms with the reality of the situation. It was like the more I said it, the more it sunk in. That helped me.

If you're not comfortable telling anyone else, don't. I had a lot of emotions to work through on my own before I could start hearing people's reactions.


BS: Me (41)
WS: Husband (47)
Married 9 years
Two children 6 & 17 (my stepson)
D-day #1: 12/18/11
D-day #2: 8/26/12 (still in contact w/ OW)
Status: Separated - not R, not D.

Posts: 359 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: Midwest
cancuncrushed
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Default  Posted: 2:49 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I told no one. My kids knew, they saw the fighting. My H told his superior, in order to fire her. thats all. I wonder tho, how many coworkers of his, know. Its VERY awkward between me and his superior. He insisted on their travel date. I do feel, the less that know the better for R. Its hard to be alone, but it would be harder to be judged for your actions. Unless you have experienced this, you really have no idea, and people can be vocal. The roller coaster is hard to explain. I am really glad my inlaws never knew. They are already mean


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Posts: 951 | Registered: Apr 2010 | From: athome
jumabl
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Default  Posted: 3:39 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I appreciate everyone's stories on sharing. We are in R, a choice we both made, so I can't imagine people knowing would make it any better. When I do get the urge to tell someone, I call him. At least he listens. I went from "I have a great guy", to "He's pretty great for being patient and listening." But, I guess if he wasn't we wouldn't be in R. (And then I get so mad for still thinking he's great...another topic though).
He keeps telling me I should tell, but I have a feeling that's his guilt and not what is best for me. So for now, mum is the word.
Thank you for the words. Not telling people is the right thing for me, and reading your insights has helped me nail that down.


Me:31
Him:32
D-Day 8/3/13

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wifeno2
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Default  Posted: 3:48 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I told everyone. I am still pretty free with that information. I would feel I was keeping secrets or living a lie if I didn't.

I also think that if more people were open with it it might change people's perceptions. It might make it possible for other people to offer support or ask for it. I also think that if someone realizes that their secrets aren't sacred they may think twice before doing things like that again.

But it does make things awkward sometimes.


Me-BW (45)
Him-WS (42)
DS 19 (prior relationship)
DS-8
DDay #1- 10/22/2010 EA/PA with MOW coworker
Dday#2:11/17/2010 beginning secret emails with potential OW#2
DDay #3 11/22/2010 still seeing OW#1
Too many DD's to count: Now up to OW #6.

Posts: 696 | Registered: Mar 2011 | From: the south
krazy8516
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Default  Posted: 4:02 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I have told the whole, complete story to one person (besides you folks here on SI). I have told parts of the story to 3 other people (including a message to the OW's BF).

When I'm feeling particularly angry, I have to stop myself from telling everybody WH cares about - his mom, his dad, his "like a mom", his best friend. When I'm mad I want to oust him as the asshole he is. The rest of the time, I'm still hoping that R is possible, and that someday WH and I will look back on this as something that happened, and not something that defines us.

If we can't work this out (and right now it's not looking very good), I will probably tell more people. I mean, when we're not living together anymore, and people wonder why, I will tell them the truth. Until then, I think enough people know.

[This message edited by krazy8516 at 4:02 PM, August 7th (Wednesday)]


me: BW, 30
him: WH, 25
us: edging closer to R every day

married 2y, together 2.5y
1 beautiful daughter, 23m

"Someday soon, I'm going to put my life together; Win or lose, I'm starting over again."


Posts: 368 | Registered: Jul 2013 | From: Texas
TXBW68
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Default  Posted: 4:34 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I told Everyone! I was a mess when he left. I couldn't hide it. I needed all of the support I could get. My closest family is 1000 miles away. It was just me and 2 kids after he walked out. Besides, it wasn't my cross to bear.

I even told a Wal-Mart cashier because she comments on the pretty necklace I was wearing. "Yes, it is pretty. My cheating lying husband gave it to me for Christmas!"

After we reconciled, only 1 friend was against it - she had been cheated on in the past and didn't think I should ever consider reconciliation. Everyone else has been very supportive.


Me (46) WH (42),2 boys 15 & 11
M 18yrs T 22yrs
Separated 10 months (4/12 to 2/13)
Final Total - #1/#2 ONS and #3/#4 EA/PA - left me for #4, didn't know about #2 and 3 until he moved back home
We are solidly in R now

Posts: 792 | Registered: Aug 2012 | From: Dallas, TX
RippedSoul
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Default  Posted: 4:46 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

For a month, I told no one that he'd just been with a prostitute. After suspecting, on another business trip, that he'd hooked up with an escort, I couldn't contain it by myself any longer and told my best friend. I truly didn't want to burden anyone else, but I was gonna die a thousand deaths if I didn't have support.

It was the best thing I ever did. I also told my therapist. And I've told all of you! :) My WH has told one of his best friends (who encouraged patching up the M). I think his secretary might suspect, too. And, he says, she's on my side (just from a couple things she's said).

We both have the support we need without people pointing fingers and second-guessing our decision to R. It's none of their business what we do, but it certainly adds to the awkwardness and shame of the whole blasted situation.

IMO, you need someone: ecclesiastical leader, friend, family member, journal, therapist YOU can talk to aside from your WH. One person. Someone who can hear you vent when such venting might actually damage your R. Since my BFF knows, we can actually joke about it now--about the OW's manure-colored hair, about how we'll "out" her publicly, about her horrible name, etc. It's silly but strangely therapeutic and highly recommendable.


BW: 49; SLAWH: 46; M: 23 yrs
DD#1--11/30/12 (prostitute #1)
DD#2--1/29/13 (AP, escorts #1 & #2)
DD#3--9/13 (trolling MILF site)
DD#4--10/8/13 (EA with AP cont'd)
DD: 20; DD: 18; DS: 16; DS: 14
PS: I've NEVER NOT edited my posts

Posts: 461 | Registered: Jul 2013 | From: California
RippedSoul
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Default  Posted: 4:47 PM, August 7th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Oops! I can see you HAVE told a couple others. Wonderful. :) Just didn't want you to be alone.

[This message edited by RippedSoul at 4:47 PM, August 7th (Wednesday)]


BW: 49; SLAWH: 46; M: 23 yrs
DD#1--11/30/12 (prostitute #1)
DD#2--1/29/13 (AP, escorts #1 & #2)
DD#3--9/13 (trolling MILF site)
DD#4--10/8/13 (EA with AP cont'd)
DD: 20; DD: 18; DS: 16; DS: 14
PS: I've NEVER NOT edited my posts

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