roses303,
A couple of points.
Lack of sex was not why your WH had an A. FWW and I were virtually asexual the last two years before dday, and it has been a struggle post dday. Yet despite physical touch being my primary love language and an almost complete lack of touch and sex in my M I did not have an A. Never even considered one.
The real question he needs to find an answer to is why having an A was his answer to a lack of sex? Why did he turn to OW when he questioned his sexual prowess?
I will never be the passionate sex starved fawning woman the OW was. I can't replace her and her ego boost to WH.
Nope, and sex with me will never be as thrilling, dangerous, and exciting as sex with her OM was for FWW. That kind of relationship, in the open, is simply unsustainable. But I agree with m334455 that sex and intimate touching are important to a M if they are important to one or both of the partners. I was ready to leave my M due to the lack of sex and touching.
I feel like I'm just going to be going through the motions and he will feel like I am doing it as pity sex.
You know, after dday this is not uncommon, the term fake it till you make it applies. FWW and I had some good sex after dday, but we also had some sex where I did it only because I thought it would be worse for my ability to reconnect to the M not to.
Part of the issue is physical - I just don't get anything out of sex and don't enjoy it very much.
This part is on you, it is yours to own and fix. There are books, there are techniques, there is open intimate conversation with your partner about what works and does not work.
And part is probably due to a lack of emotional connection.
Certainly understandable after dday, and this one is on the both of you. He needs to demonstrate through consistent actions and behaviors that he loves you, that he has changed so that an A will not be his answer to a lack of sex or feelings of inadequacy. You need to be open to accepting his efforts. You both must practice open and intimate discussion, not just of sex, but all issues in your M.
I am told that sex is the first thing to leave the relationship when there is trouble, and the last thing to return. In our situation it has been nearly 4 years since dday, and sex frequency is still an issue for us. There is more touching and I know FWW is working on this, but it has taken time. If your WH is looking for things to be better soon or he will have another A, he may be unrealistic.
Finally, as m334455 posted; there has to be MUTUALLY enjoyable sex life. My FWW has said she would be fine never having sex again. I told her I was not fine having sex at the frequency we were, and that I was ready to D. She decided that she wanted to stay M to me more than she wanted to not have sex again. She touches and initiates sex less than she would normally, and I go without sex and touching more than I would like to normally. We talk about this, negotiate, and come to the middle to meet each others' needs because we do love each other and want to stay together.
FWW used to tell me she felt obligated to have sex and resented it. I did not want obligated sex either. She now has sex as a way to communicate her love for me. She continues to work to find ways to feel more aroused and enjoy the act more for herself.
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roses303: we corss-posted
Do you think those of us with this problem do not struggle with it every day.
I know that my FWW struggles with this and feels guilt and dismay over her lack of sex drive. I also know that her lack of participation in sex with me, her virtual refusal to have sex with me the last 2 years prior to dday was nothing at all like the pain she caused me by having her affairs. No comparison. Her affairs were a life chainging benchmark in my life that rocked me to my core. Her lack of sexual intrest in me was frustrating.
[This message edited by atsenaotie at 11:51 AM, August 5th (Monday)]