I am new to SI and the pain that brought me here. But if there is one thing I've learned since I started reading these forums, it is that cheaters are broken people. Sadly, they also tend to leave broken people in their wake, and it's not fair.
Am I correct in understanding that your version of NC is NC with your husband, and not his NC with the other woman? I can't imagine what that must be like. I am still living under the same roof as my "scheming, lying, cheating lowlife gutter rat," and while that is difficult, I truly believe that it is keeping me (at the moment) from going off the deep end completely. I want to hate him - I think part of me already does - but I know I am going to miss him.
I'm in no position to tell you to be strong, but come here for support often. It helps, even if only a little.
::hugs::me: BW, 30
him: WH, 25
us: edging closer to R every day
married 2y, together 2.5y
1 beautiful daughter, 23m
"Someday soon, I'm going to put my life together; Win or lose, I'm starting over again."