Why the heck do I let him hurt me. One gaze across the room and I mean gaze... Such a careless gaze, and I still wonder why I wasn't good enough to fight for. Ugh... Yes, it's a new day! Hugs to all.
I didn't have to go through the push/pull that many here do - the uncertainty. He made it very clear he was done, so I could start working on my recovery right away.
Oh hell it was painful, but at least I knew where I stood.
Sending strength and peace.
Still I suffer trying to believe all the people saying, "it's not you, it's him. He's broken." I see and hear evidence of this, but have doubt that creeps in and causes setbacks.
Some of it I can grasp and it helps, but doesn't make the hurt gone.
And I think to myself, and people have said, that his life wasn't so terrible here. He rewrites it to justify what he did and continues to do.
But still, the hurt of remembering all I put myself through to try to please that man and "keep" him (before I knew of OW and others)...
Yes. I know your hurt. It is a constant companion.
The only thing that stays the same, is change. -M. Etheridge
Yep a friend who has been cheated on twice told me that about her ex-husbands, it totally applies to The Princess too.
As a matter of fact, it applies to ALL our waywards! It just takes us a long time to realize that.
The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous