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User Topic: Open letter to OM
2married2quit
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Angry  Posted: 3:04 PM, July 31st (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Edited from the OW plus added some stuff.

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Dear OM,

WTF?

Honestly, just what the f&$k were you thinking? You knew she was married. You knew we had children. You knew she slept beside me every night. And you knew that I knew nothing. Is that what made it so delicious? So tempting? That I appeared by her side at various events, utterly clueless to what was going on behind my back? Did you feel triumphant? That you'd beat me at something? You and I were friends! That's the worst part of it all. You know me! We were pals!

Okay, so I looked stupid, at least to you. Is the satisfaction of that worth sacrificing your own dignity? Because, really, how can you have any dignity when you're pulling up your pants as she races out the door to be home in time for dinner? How can you have any dignity when you're alone – again – on a Saturday night while she's watching TV with the kids and tucking them into bed?

And frankly, though I might have looked stupid, and perhaps pitiful, to you...and some less-than-compassionate others, I'll take stupid over sleazy and low and cruel any day of the week. No matter how awful it felt to be me when I found out, I'd still take that over being you. No matter that my eyes were practically swollen shut from crying, I could still look myself square in the mirror without shame.

Did you think it was simply a matter of time? That you would be appealing enough for her to walk away from the life she'd built? That all those fantasies you'd convinced yourself of – that she was bored with me and not " in love"– were actually true? Did you really believe that any relationship based on deception would deliver you from your unhappiness?

My guess is, yes, you did. My guess is that very few Other Men honestly admit their role as an accomplice in the intentional hurting and decepition of another human being. Often another human being you don't know. Or barely know, in this case you knew me VERY well. Or perhaps, shockingly, Instead, they sell themselves clichés. Something along the lines of "we're soulmates", "we couldn't help ourselves", "the chemistry was too powerful" or "you can't stop love." All of which, I suspect you recognize on some level, is total bullshit. All of which allows you to divorce your abhorrent actions from your intent. "We didn't mean to hurt anyone," you wail.

Oh. Yes. You. Did.

Because you knew. You knew that I was being hurt, even if I didn't yet know it. You knew I was being lied to. And betrayed. And you participated in that. Knowingly. Willingly. Perhaps even happily.

What's more, my children were being hurt. And though I don't expect you to take total responsibility for that (after all, SHE was their mother), you nonetheless contributed to the potential dissolution of their family. Worst of all, you were dancing in the shit and also damaging YOUR matrimony, YOUR kids. Betraying the only woman that can put up with you, your wife!

And for what?

Was the sex that good? Were the feelings of superiority, if only for the brief time she was with you, so intoxicating that it made all the humiliating departures, all the embarrassment when you were caught, all the shame this no doubt triggered, worth it?

And if she left me for you? What would you have gained? Two emotionally damaged children every second weekend. A woman who lies and cheats. A woman who doesn't have the self-control to stop herself from doing something she knows to be wrong. To be hurtful. What a prize. Guess what? If she's not willing to become something better than that – she's all yours. At least until she meets another you sometime in the future and you become cast as the betrayed husband. Or who knows, with your inability to say no to temptaio, you may cheat on her instead. LOL
Believe it or not, I felt sorry for you. Though I raged at you in my head, loathed the look of you, wanted to spit each time I said your name, and shower each time I imagined you two together, I nonetheless felt a sliver of pity for you. Because no-one does this unless they value themselves so little that they settle for another's scraps rather than demand respect and kindness. Or unless they're so delusional that they really believe that this is how true love manifests. Unless they've fallen for all that "star-crossed lovers" and "us against the world" crap.

It has been 1 year - a date that's seared into my mental calendar. I have no idea where you are now. And though I still taste anger when I think back, I'm able to wish you, if not well, then at least better than what you had. If only to spare another man the agony of finding out that you're sleeping with his wife.


BS - Me 43 WS - Her 41
DDAY - June 2012 (found the texts)
DDAY2 - Next Day (found out who) EA
TT- till 9/2012 (some PA)
Married 20yrs. 2kids
Status: in careful R. Sometimes spinning our wheels

Posts: 1397 | Registered: Aug 2012 | From: USA
NotDefeatedYet
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Default  Posted: 4:01 PM, July 31st (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

They're cowards. He doesn't have the backbone to stand up and face you, that's why it has to be a secret. It's like a dog peeing on a fire hydrant. The little dog has to wait until the big dog is gone before it marks it's spot. There is no way the little dog would ever do that in front of the big dog.


"It's a fool that looks for logic in the chambers of the human heart."

Posts: 769 | Registered: Oct 2011 | From: Texas
2married2quit
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Member # 36555
Default  Posted: 3:12 PM, August 1st (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

It actually felt good posting this. I printed it as well. Wish I could send it to OM. But I regress.


BS - Me 43 WS - Her 41
DDAY - June 2012 (found the texts)
DDAY2 - Next Day (found out who) EA
TT- till 9/2012 (some PA)
Married 20yrs. 2kids
Status: in careful R. Sometimes spinning our wheels

Posts: 1397 | Registered: Aug 2012 | From: USA
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