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Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 11:26 AM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am new here. I began A cyber affair in 9/2012. I met an acquaintance In my travels. Didn't know her well at all just through a visit to a doctors office 5 years prior. She was my friend on FB and would like various statements and pics I would post. In any case after meeting her she offered me a cyber affair. Masking it with friendship first then proceeding to making it a cyber affair starting with soft sexual statements. Asking about my sex life and complaining about hers and the lack of attention on her side. During this time and previous to this my marriage was very disconnected. As we both have high stress jobs. She is very committed to her job and has a hobby in which she participates often in. She is very passionate about this hobby. Sex would not happen often. As little as once a month or less. I would ask for it and it felt as if she would pacify me and say she was too tired. We even went on vacation and we had sex once after spending a week together. I desperately pleaded with her I wanted more time with her and not only sex but to do things together. It never happened.
After meeting with the other person & the sex talk became worse and more explicit. She found out who my wife was and threatened to tell her email call etc. i was horrified. Gradually this EMA became a like-hate relationship. It was revealed to me this person was married with kids. She also revealed to me she was into BDSM. This horrified me. That is something I am not into nor would I ever be. Over time she revealed herself as a pill addicted drinker with a sex addiction. She demanded I meet her or she was going to tell my wife. I booked a room twice in good faith but never showed up b/c I was frightened and guilty. The other party sat in the parking lot of both hotels supposedly and I never showed. She texted emailed and FB messaged me how disappointed she was and how she felt I should have regardless. That she would make it ok. That there would be no BDSM. I never believed her. A month or so later same thing. She offered then threatened. I booked and never showed. From then on we would chat a few times a day. There were a few days we didn't speak at all. Some would be explicit,some not so much. More like just daily life and routine. This continued on for months. She never once again, asked me to meet her mind you.
Until in late June when my wife found the facebook page open with all her messages from 7 weeks prior. My life exploded. I cut off all communication with the affair. told the other side I was caught and we were over. She left for a few days then returned. Over those days she made me promise 100% honesty about the entire affair. When she returned I lied again and told her it was only a few weeks. She accepted that and we had a blissful week and a half together. It was like dating again. I agreed to give her all my email passwords and personal bank info during that time. One morning decided to investigate. Found emails in response to the hotel meet-ups, charges on my debit card to the two bookings as described previously. This dated all the way back to September. She felt betrayed again and was furious over my second lie and felt she was betrayed. I lied to spare her more agony in which I shouldn't have. She is so hostile and mortified. She barley speaks to me and we communicate via email. We are still in the apartment but sleep separate as roommates.
I emailed the other party in front of her as she wished. The other party responded to the both of us with same story as I said verbatim. She also admitted to her husband about the affair and they were in counseling and trying to fix things.
What do I do people to win my wife's trust back? There is no communication with the other party. None at all!
Please respond my wife of 6 years no longer trusts me. I want to fix this.

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SurprisinglyOkay
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Default  Posted: 12:27 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Welcome to SI.

Read in the healing library, that yellow box in the upper left corner.

Don't lie to your wife. It may feel like you are protecting her, but the truth will eventually come out anyway, and be far more destructive if she has to dig it out than if you tell her.

Also She may benefit from being on this site. Both my BS and I are, and it has been a lifesaver.

Start reading, I read "how to help your spouse heal from your affair" and it really helped me, a lot!! It's a quick read.
Keep posting!!


FWS me 36 (recovering addict)
BS him 39 AFrayedKnot
Together 7 years
2 children


"Your secrets keep you sick"


Posts: 1130 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: 221B
Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 12:30 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Essentially I am asking her for a third chance. I lied to protect her this is wrong. I am apologizing to her profusely. She is taking whateverbi say and throwing itnback at me like bullets. She said inwas her rock. And now it is gone.

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Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 12:32 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

@ broevil what do i do?

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SurprisinglyOkay
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Default  Posted: 1:05 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

You read. Books and here. If you don't like reading get cd's or whatever.

Post here.

Get yourself into IC, figure out why having an affair was an acceptable choice to you.

Learn from my mistakes...be proactive, do all these things without being asked.

Be honest.

This is not an overnight process, it takes a while. You blew up her world, and yours. It takes a lot of time to heal from infidelity

Strap in, this is one hell of a ride.


FWS me 36 (recovering addict)
BS him 39 AFrayedKnot
Together 7 years
2 children


"Your secrets keep you sick"


Posts: 1130 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: 221B
Unagie
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Default  Posted: 1:08 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

You tell her the truth. Write it all down, dates, memories, things uttered or sent, anything you can remember. After you come clean you start digging, look for an IC if that works for you, it doesn't work for everyone but that doesn't mean you don't do the work. Ask yourself why you did this, then keep asking why until you have a real reason and not just surface crap. You were frightened and that'd why you never showed up to the hotel, what were you frightened for? Was it the fact that she was into kinky sex or was it because you were scared you'd get caught? At what point did you acknowledge what you were doing was wrong? Read the healing library:

http://survivinginfidelity.com/healing_library/reconciliation/right_wrong.asp

http://survivinginfidelity.com/healing_library/reconciliation/consequences.asp

http://survivinginfidelity.com/healing_library/reconciliation/guilt.asp

http://survivinginfidelity.com/healing_library/confrontation/details.asp


read the following threads, I'll bump them up for you:

Things that every wayward spouse needs to know:
http://survivinginfidelity.com/forums.asp?tid=324250&AP=321

The Life Boat:
http://survivinginfidelity.com/forums.asp?tid=354101


All that is just a starting point. The most work you will get done is the work you do on your own. Give your BS what she needs whether that be space or comfort. Understand we do not have the answer as to what SHE will need to begin rebuilding her trust in you again. That will be her choice to make, all you can do is begin working on you and making the changes to make yourself a safe partner. Ask yourself if you are making the changes because this is something you are doing to make you better or to comply with a set of standards you think will "make" her trust you again. The changes must be genuine, the work is slow, this is a marathon not a sprint and it takes years to heal from this and rebuild not a few months. If you are not in for the long haul understand that this is not going to be something you can handle, I am just being honest. Patience with yourself and the situation is a must. There's more and other's will touch upon more points but this is your starting point...what are you going to do?


Heartbroken madhatter trying to rebuild

No longer together

Do not let others be your reference for who you see in the mirror.

Stop allowing people to hurt you, because you don't love you enough to walk away.


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lieshurt
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Default  Posted: 1:10 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I lied to spare her more agony

One of the first things you are going to have to do is admit that you lied to save your own butt, not because you wanted to spare her pain. If you truly wanted to spare her pain, then you wouldn't have cheated in the first place. All of us who've been lied to say this.

I desperately pleaded with her I wanted more time with her and not only sex but to do things together. It never happened.

Second, you'll have to stop using this as an excuse. You had other options to choose from other than cheating. By saying this, you are pointing the finger at your wife as the one responsible for "causing" you to cheat.

Didn't know her well at all just through a visit to a doctors office 5 years prior.

Really think about this...How exactly did you end up taking things further with somebody you met at a doctor's office? You had to already be crossing boundaries if you managed an affair from this.

She also admitted to her husband about the affair and they were in counseling and trying to fix things

Unless you've spoken with the husband, you don't know this to be true.

What do I do people to win my wife's trust back?

You have to accept that you may never earn her trust again. However, if you hope to, then you have to start by telling the truth. You cannot withhold things and you must be consistent. Volunteer information, don't wait for her to ask. Be specific when you apologize...what exactly are you apologizing for? Do not get defensive when she asks questions or checks your phone/emails.

This is a long, hard road. Be sure you are up to the challenge of helping your wife come to terms with this. It will take strength and determination, but it can be done.


I'm sorry if you don't like my Honesty, but to be fair I don't like your lies.

Sometimes it's better to push someone away...not because you stopped loving them but because you can't take the pain anymore.


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Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 1:15 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am in IC. I have been for a year now. I never mentioned to him my dirty secret. I have now. We so far discovered that I di what I did because myslf and my spouse were so disconnected.

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Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 1:16 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I also grew up in an abusive home. This is another discovery.

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lieshurt
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Default  Posted: 1:17 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am in IC.

myslf and my spouse were so disconnected.

Does your IC specialize in infidelity? Probably not given the conclusion you two have come up with. You really need one that specializes in infidelity.

[This message edited by lieshurt at 1:18 PM, July 29th (Monday)]


I'm sorry if you don't like my Honesty, but to be fair I don't like your lies.

Sometimes it's better to push someone away...not because you stopped loving them but because you can't take the pain anymore.


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Unagie
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Default  Posted: 1:20 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

We so far discovered that I di what I did because myslf and my spouse were so disconnected

I call bullshit. You're wife has nothing to so with your choice to have an A. If you were disconnected there were plenty of other options for resolution. Why did you choose an A?


Heartbroken madhatter trying to rebuild

No longer together

Do not let others be your reference for who you see in the mirror.

Stop allowing people to hurt you, because you don't love you enough to walk away.


Posts: 2623 | Registered: Oct 2012
Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 1:21 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

The IC specializes in spousal and family issues. Wow @ true lies! You are waking me up.

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Default  Posted: 1:22 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I call bullshit. You're wife has nothing to so with your choice to have an A. If you were disconnected there were plenty of other options for resolution. Why did you choose an A?

BINGO!!

It can take real digging to find out why.
Take the time and do it.

[This message edited by broevil at 1:22 PM, July 29th (Monday)]


FWS me 36 (recovering addict)
BS him 39 AFrayedKnot
Together 7 years
2 children


"Your secrets keep you sick"


Posts: 1130 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: 221B
Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 1:23 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Chose A because no matter what I did she still wouldnt give me time together. I was wrong. I should have packed my bags and left for a weekend at my families house to prove my point instead of going with A.

[This message edited by Nyc0274 at 1:24 PM, July 29th (Monday)]


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SurprisinglyOkay
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Default  Posted: 1:26 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

But WHY an A??

It sounds like you packed up your toys and went and played with someone else.


FWS me 36 (recovering addict)
BS him 39 AFrayedKnot
Together 7 years
2 children


"Your secrets keep you sick"


Posts: 1130 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: 221B
Unagie
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Default  Posted: 1:27 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Chose A because no matter what I did she still wouldnt give me time together. I was wrong. I should have packed my bags and left for a weekend at my families house to prove my point instead of going with A.

All this screams inability to communicate. Your solution instead of an A was to walk away for a weekend and pout instead of sitting down and communicating how you felt? Hos does this resolve anything. I think one of the first things to work on is how you communicate.


Heartbroken madhatter trying to rebuild

No longer together

Do not let others be your reference for who you see in the mirror.

Stop allowing people to hurt you, because you don't love you enough to walk away.


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Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 1:27 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

@ true lies. I didnt pay her any mind five years ago. It wasnt a general physical, was dealing with bad stomach issues and didnt care about anything else at the time. Seriously I could barely eat at the time. She connected with me on FB, I accepted without a second thought. Had many aquintances on there as friends. From previous jobs, college and my past.

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Default  Posted: 1:33 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

She connected with me on FB

How? I've been to the doctor plenty of times and nobody connected with me on FB as a result. Was she an employee that got your name or were you in the waiting room together and she asked for your info?

I didnt pay her any mind five years ago.

You had to have in order for you two to connect at all.

[This message edited by lieshurt at 1:33 PM, July 29th (Monday)]


I'm sorry if you don't like my Honesty, but to be fair I don't like your lies.

Sometimes it's better to push someone away...not because you stopped loving them but because you can't take the pain anymore.


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Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 1:33 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I chose A, because i felt no matter what i did she wouldn't connect with me. Sat down with her, spoke to her, begged her. At work I see all the families and married couples doing things together and it was infuriating and depressing. Sent her flowers for no reason, bought everything she liked at food store, cleaned. To no avail. People at work would ask, what are u guys doing this weekend? I had no answer. Tried to make plans but something on her end or mine would get in the way. I used to work full time night shift. I even switched to day shift. Nothing

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Nyc0274
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Default  Posted: 1:34 PM, July 29th (Monday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

@ lies hurt she was an employee. I am in the healthcare industry as well.

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