Hey, NewMom0220!
Let's see...
I've read:
Risking Everything
When Good People have Affairs
The Wizard of Oz and other Narcissists
On Grief and Grieving
The Monogamy Myth
Heartwounds
In An Unspoken Voice
Transcending Post-Infidelity Stress Disorder
After the Affair
I Wasn't Ready to Say Goodbye
A New Normal
I would say that, of these, only "Wizard of Oz" was ultimately useful to me. The others were a good distraction when I was having a really bad day, but there weren't huge take aways from them.
WS's IC told the two of us to read a certain website that begins with a D and ends with "eggy" (I don't think I'm allowed to promote other sites openly here). I tried to read it, but it assumed the WS would want to R. Not a lot of help there on how to deal with someone who has a first class ticket on the remorseless crazy train.
I'm currently reading: The Journey from Abandonment to Healing
And Not Just Friends is next when I'm up for it. I also have Why is it Always About You? because I'm trying to figure out how I accommodated someone with a PD by mistake.
(I know this place is anonymous, but I'm willing to bet you can guess my job has something to do with reading a lot of books.
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Someone recently recommended Codependent No More to me, but hesitated from pushing it for the same reasons that you are hinting at (that I don't seem to lack strength to cut him off, I'm moving on as best I can, etc). I'm considering getting it anyway because I think codependency is a problem that he had (and has with the current OW) and, as I say, somehow I accommodated it.
Briefly, my IC thinks that what mostly happened here is that I was a career person (so always super busy) without a ton of dating experience (I had a high school boyfriend and a college boyfriend before WS and met WS when I was 21). Because of my upbringing I assumed he was normal and could handle himself in a healthy way because I was as well. That assumption obviously proved to be really really flawed.
It's been tough for me because OW is seemingly not as nice, less attractive, less accomplished, more bossy, has a child (which he said he didn't want)... so I've struggled to understand her appeal and the rejection. The only thing I got out of him was that, and this is TMI, she asked him be rough (which he never felt comfortable asking me, a feminist, to do, I suppose). Anyway, IC says that, regardless of the specific PD, it looks like he "twinned" with me and now needs someone who keeps him less accountable, who is a little less pretty, smart, etc., so he feels more secure that she won't leave him. I don't know. Sometimes I think he tells me that stuff to just to help build my confidence back up. That said, I think I told you before that I saw OW once in a family photo and asked WS which one was her and which one was her mother. She's probably a perfectly nice looking, accomplished and (seemingly) kind person in real life. Who knows.
For me, none of these books really takes the sting of all of this away... and who can really understand why he's done what he's done. I'll have to ask him in the afterlife (which I predict is the next time he'll get a chance to talk to me).
[This message edited by PhantomLimb at 7:04 PM, July 26th (Friday)]