I don't know about the shaking - anxiety maybe? I can't tell you amount of crazy looks I get from people seeing my shakiness and random nervous chatter and probably thinking I'm on drugs.
I refuse to see a doctor, I was addicted to Xanax and will not take any prescription drug right now. At the same time I feel like I could crash and burn any second. :(
Finally this is R 8/14/13
"Forgiving is a journey; the deeper the wound, the longer the journey".
You don't have much of a choice with this pain - it's been dumped on you. You can stuff it or you can let it go.
Stop avoiding your pain. Face it. Accept it. Embrace it. Really. You can do it. Its the best and fastest way by far to get rid of it.
What you're doing now is, in fact, setting yourself up to crash and burn. If you feel your pain, you'll feel energized as you let it go.
You might find IC is a big help in processing the pain.
[This message edited by sisoon at 12:04 PM, July 25th (Thursday)]
I was a bundle of energy at first too. Up at 5:00am everyday. Exercise and clean the house by 7:00. Hell, I even cut down trees last summer.
But the only way to get to the other side of hell is to walk straight thru it. It's ok to cry, yell, break something, hit a punching bag, etc. Just let it out before your overall health is affected permanently.