IMO, you are looking at those letters for a reason. There is something you need that you aren't getting. Something is unresolved. You don't need to rugs weep. You need to figure out what you need.
I know I go digging when I need a reality check. I can only shelve things and enjoy that things are going relatively well for awhile before I need something to keep things in perspective.
All of this rings true. I've started up IC again - I've been to quite a few, and even a psychiatrist - since the inception of this hell.
I want my life back.BS: me - 37
WH: him - 37
DD: 11 mos
Married over 9 years, together for 18.
DD#1: 12/12/10 - LTA of 3 years, 2 mos.
DD#2: 02/02/11 - 2 EA/PA with coworkers, a month after the LTA was ended (by OW).