So...here I am. Back to square one again. But, that is the frustration of dating! I've always hated dating and remember how relieved I used to feel when I was married and my friends would talk about their nightmare dating experiences.
The odd part is....is that I feel like I have come a gazillion miles from where I was right after my divorce. I've always been an emotionally driven individual whose heart is my compass. That has always gotten me into trouble. But, as of late...I have found that when my emotions get carried away...I have this strong voice of reason in my head that brings me back down to Earth.....thus planting my independent feet firmly back on the ground where they belong!
Its nice to get excited about meeting new people and enjoying the initial "high" that you get from all of the attention you can receive from a potential SO .....but I digress. As much as I love those feelings.....I am more determined than ever to have the FULL package this time. Its gotta be more than puppies and rainbows. Puppies grow up and shit all over everything and rainbows ultimately disappear. Hence my history with men. Sure.....puppies are so sweet and lovable and cute starting out....and rainbows are magical and colorful and seemingly perfect for a moment.... but neither one lasts.
I need something real. I need something that I can depend on. Something long-lasting and more than just a "high" or a "smoke & mirrors" effect. I want love. REAL life-long forever love and companionship. And, if that means that I risk the chance of turning down every Joe Smuck that comes my way and Mr. "right-for-me" doesn't come along....and it ends up just me, my daughter....and about 15 fat happy housecats.....then so be it! I'm willing to hold out forever for the right one. So, I hope you guys brought your earplugs onto the bus....cause I might be breaking out the Duracell!
::Hops off soapbox, kicks off stilettos, jumps into running shoes, and runs off into my very own happy single sunset:: "Sometimes your knight in shining armor ...is just a douchebag in tin foil!!"
ME - BW - 35
HIM - XWH - 39
D day: November 15th, 2009
Married: 5 Years, together 8
Divorced: December 13th, 2010
New Beginning: Piper/8-3-12