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User Topic: Infidelity and loss - they both suck.
OktoberMest
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Default  Posted: 3:47 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

So today my BH turned up spontaneously at my place of work.

My first reaction was joy. I looked up and there he was right in front of me.

Then he said those words "Can we take a walk outside?" My heart sank, my stomach went into free fall...omg what does he think he's found? I haven't hidden anything, have nothing to hide...nothing at all...

So outside we go.

The he breaks down into tears "OKM, I'm so, so sorry", he says.
"It's ok baby, what is it?"
"I'm sorry" he says again

By now I'm convinced he's leaving me. I mean what else could it be?

"I found Neo on the road this morning, he'd been hit by a car" he says.

Neo is my 13 year old black and white cat. He was my first "rescue" right out of vet school, when he broke his leg and needed it amputating aged 5 wks. We kept him, because the owners had him as a farm cat and couldn't justify paying to treat him. We operated, and saved him. And I loved him for 13 years.

And now he's gone, 3 weeks after our baby girl, Eva, was killed the same way.

Huh? I mean really, wtf?

I can't believe this has happened.
I'm so grateful LH is not leaving me.
I can't believe that is my first thought still, especially after him giving me forgiveness.

Infidelity sucks. It leaves us WSs with the legacy that the BS may leave at any time despite the effort and hard work. Despite their desire to R and forgive. It always haunts us, back there somewhere, even when I'm not really conscious of it.

Loss sucks. These are just cats right? Nope. They're my family. I don't have kids. I had 2 cats and have 2 dogs. Someone on here called them furrykids. That's what they are to me. My girl and my boy were my furry kids, and now they're gone. That's sucks so bad.

LH is being amzing. He found Neo on the road 10mins after he'd seen him in our garden. He picked him up; cleaned the mess on the road and buried him next to our baby burmese. He then called my work to get them to hold me there so he could tell me in person. He tried to do all the right things and he so did.
He took the day off so he could be wth me today. That was lovely, especially as my last call was putting someone's loved eldery Shetland pony to sleep today.

Thank you LH. Love you. And our little furry family; present and past. x

[This message edited by OktoberMest at 3:50 PM, July 10th (Wednesday)]


Me: FWW (35) Growing up at last.
LonelyHusband: BH (41)
Dday 1: 29/Oct/11; Dday 2:15/Nov/11; last TT 15/Mar/12
In R...working my arse off.
When you're struggling with commitment to your marriage, just imagine what it's like to be a penguin.

Posts: 558 | Registered: Dec 2011 | From: UK
authenticnow
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Default  Posted: 3:52 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm so sorry for your loss.

And I'm glad that you and LH have each other.

Hugs.


Take up your space (and do it well).

"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt."


Posts: 38018 | Registered: Sep 2007
Aubrie
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Default  Posted: 3:52 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Oh OKM, I'm so very sorry. Keeping you both in my thoughts.

(((OKM)))


Me - FWW * Him - QuietStand

"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway." - J. Wayne


Posts: 6302 | Registered: Nov 2011 | From: South, Y'all!
EmotionalFool
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Default  Posted: 3:56 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am sorry OKM


WW: 28 (ME)
BH: 28 (SI profile: CrappyLife)
D-Day- 15/10/12

Posts: 334 | Registered: Nov 2012
cdnmommy
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Default  Posted: 4:14 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am very sorry for your loss.

I am glad, though, that you have each other to lean on.

(((hugs))) to you both.


Me: BW
DDay: Oct 2010 + 6 weeks false R
2.5 (+?) year A with married coworker/my "friend"
1 great kid.
Reconciling and healing

Posts: 1742 | Registered: Nov 2010
jo2love
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Default  Posted: 4:18 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Posts: 35875 | Registered: Mar 2011
DixieD
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Default  Posted: 4:22 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

OKM and LH. I'm very sorry to hear you lost 2 of your furkids, especially so close together. Hugs to you both.


Growing forward

Posts: 1767 | Registered: Sep 2011
scarredforever
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Default  Posted: 4:29 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am so sorry to hear this


"Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it."

Mark Twain

Me-BS 52
Him-WS 53
Together 33 years

6-5-06 Day of Reckoning

"The acquired inability to escape"


Posts: 1058 | Registered: May 2009 | From: swfl
OktoberMest
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Default  Posted: 4:31 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Looking supersilious...

Eva and Neo. <3


Me: FWW (35) Growing up at last.
LonelyHusband: BH (41)
Dday 1: 29/Oct/11; Dday 2:15/Nov/11; last TT 15/Mar/12
In R...working my arse off.
When you're struggling with commitment to your marriage, just imagine what it's like to be a penguin.

Posts: 558 | Registered: Dec 2011 | From: UK
NoTriangles
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Default  Posted: 4:37 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Oh my goodness. I am so very very sorry. To lose your Neo while you are still grieving the loss of Eva?? I can only imagine the pain and loss.

Like you, I don't have children. Only my pups. They are my kids and my babies and, for many months, were my only reason to get out of bed each day.

I hope you can cuddle with LH and your pups tonight and just remember how much joy the furkids have brought to your life.

Sending you both big hugs.

(((Neo)))


Me: Finding my Sunlight
Him: Traitor in my Foxhole
Let go or get dragged.

Posts: 1252 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: a state of consciousness
heartbroken0903
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Default  Posted: 5:22 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Oh, OkM, I'm sorry. You're a strong lady...I would lose my mind.

(((hugs)))

And no... not just cats. My 3 are my babies.


Me: XWS, 30s, 5-month EA/PA in '09-'10
Husband: XBS, 40s
No kids

Married 2.5 years
D-day 3/6/10
Divorced 5/14/10

Remarried.


Posts: 2228 | Registered: Mar 2010 | From: the cat's meow
knightsbff
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Default  Posted: 6:00 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm so sorry OKM & LH. My one fur baby has been such a help to me in dealing with this mess I've made.

I'm happy to hear LH has been so wonderful. I'm glad you guys have each other.


FWW 40's
D-day August 27, 2012
3 kids and 2 dogs

I edit often because I make a lot of typos. ☺️


Posts: 1499 | Registered: Sep 2012 | From: Deep South, USA
Jrazz
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Default  Posted: 6:55 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

OMG I'm so sorry.

I'm utterly speechless. Sending hugs and good thoughts to you both.


Cherish those who seek the truth but beware of those who find it. - François-Marie Arouet

Posts: 17839 | Registered: Feb 2011 | From: California
SandAway
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Default  Posted: 7:06 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am so sorry


They will not go quietly,
the cats who've shared our lives.
In subtle ways they let us know
their spirit still survives.

Old habits still make us think
we hear a meow at the door.
Or step back when we drop
a tasty morsel on the floor.

Our feet still go around the place
the food dish used to be,
And, sometimes, coming home at night,
we miss them terribly.

And although time may bring new friends
and a new food dish to fill,
That one place in our hearts
belongs to them. . . and always will.

~Linda Barnes


fWW
BH Tred
M 16yrs
DDay Nov. 2011

Guns don't kill people; Affairs kill people


Posts: 439 | Registered: Dec 2012
Mrs Panda
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Default  Posted: 8:32 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

so sorry, honey


Me-41 FWW Him-45BH
M 13years. Reconciled.
DDay#1 Nov 2008 (OM2)
DDay#2 Aug 2009 (Confessed to OM 2001)
"Those who believe in telekinetics, raise my hand." -Kurt Vonnegut

Posts: 1992 | Registered: Jan 2010 | From: The SouthEast
VeilLifted
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Default  Posted: 8:41 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm so sorry.

((OKM & LH))


Me - BW
Him - FWH
DDay 10-29-11 2 month EA 1 time PA
He had ended it 10-28-11
Broke NC 12-20-11
S 12-21-11 filed D 1-4-12
R started/H moved home 2-8-12
2 wonderul boys 17 & 14(now 20 & 17)
Now we have a beautiful grandson!
Married 19 years(n

Posts: 229 | Registered: Jan 2012 | From: Indiana
heartache101
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Default  Posted: 9:15 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I am so sorry for your loss..


There are degrees to which you let people back into your life and degrees to which you let them back into your heart-which, of course, are not the same thing

Posts: 3188 | Registered: Dec 2009 | From: Indiana
5454real
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Default  Posted: 10:41 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Crap, condolences to both you and LH.

Stength


BH 51, WW 42
DS 23(Mine),SD 21,SS 20(Hers),DS 9 Ours, DGS 3, DGD 1 mo
D=Day #1 5/04EA (Rugswept)
D-Day #2 3/10/12, TT til 3/13/12
Married 10yrs
“I have no love for a friend who loves in words alone.”
― Sophocles, Antigone

Posts: 2987 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: midwest
silverhopes
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Default  Posted: 10:45 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

(((OKM, LH, Eva, Neo)))


Find peace. Or sleep on it.
Sometimes my monkeys, sometimes my circus.
Infidelities are like icebergs - they may take many different shapes and sizes, but they all damage your ship.

Posts: 3905 | Registered: Jul 2011 | From: California
cinnamongurl
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Default  Posted: 11:25 PM, July 10th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

OKM & LH hugs ×infinity!!!
My heart broke for you both reading this! I am so sorry for your losses! What an unbelievably awful thing for you both to go through!! My deepest condolences! We also have no children, just a kitty... no not JUST a kitty, they are never "just pets" they are beloved members of the family. They are best friends. They teach us to love, and to care for others, without judgement. They are always with us, even when they are gone. My thoughts and heart go out to you both! I cannot say how sorry I am for you guys! *hugs*

Eta: what beautiful pictures!

[This message edited by cinnamongurl at 11:27 PM, July 10th (Wednesday)]


Me: 36 fWGF He: 35 BBF and my heart
Together 18 yrs. Many ddays, last one late 8/12 "Healing takes courage, and we all have courage, even if we have to dig a little to find it." Tori Amos



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