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jjct
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Default  Posted: 8:16 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Hi NB!
I'm jj.
Purveyor of laughter, tears those dam salty things! & dumb conundrums.
I didn't mean for it to happen. Honest injun!
Me happy campAH!

The dang thing is -
I'm attracted.
& I want to be sure, inside,

that I'm NOT just attracted to attraction.
KWIM?

Me trusting the tingle?
Get outta here!
I'd sooner eat cold beets than let my happy heart out.
Expose it to exposure.

Uh uh!
So,
what is the tingle?
Is it in me? (as in *only*)

Obviously, we're strangers, in the sense that I kicked the kisa's ass, but this is a new thing.
And I want to be sure.
Before I let it out.

I'm jj, and I'm not sure I approve of the message my silly heart is sending...careful now, careful!


Posts: 6432 | Registered: Dec 2007 | From: texas
Sad in AZ
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Default  Posted: 8:32 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Like!


I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.

Posts: 19815 | Registered: Jun 2009 | From: Upstate NY
jjct
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Default  Posted: 8:41 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks friend - means a LOT to me!
I'm a bit skeered...

Posts: 6432 | Registered: Dec 2007 | From: texas
OnceInALifetime
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Default  Posted: 8:53 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Yeah, it is scary. The few times I've felt that I've gotten my ass kicked.

But that's probably because my own confidence plummets when I feel the tingles. Which makes me wonder, is that partly what the tingles are all about? Feeling like you're in the presence of an idol?

I don't trust the tingles much myself. If you figure out how to work with them, let me know, because it would be fun as hell to be able to surf that wave.


BH, now divorced

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inconnu
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Default  Posted: 9:11 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Sweetie, I'm pretty sure if you were just going to be attracted to attraction it would have happened way before now. It's been a long road, you've done a lot of hard work. Trust in that, and enjoy the rewards.


Say what you wanna say and let the words fall out...honestly
I wanna see you be brave

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than, less than perfect


Posts: 12124 | Registered: Jun 2009 | From: TX
jjct
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Default  Posted: 9:24 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Awww! I LOVE you for that sister!
Gives my heart some peace.
Instead of juddering back and forth over the line between self-checking and outright navel-gazing!

OIAL - it feels like the same question.
The tingle is in me,
BUT
I refuse to attribute it to an idol...or let's say
*something outside of me*
Does that make sense?

It's what I learned through the healing, that is - to embrace - within - every dam shred of every dam thing.


Posts: 6432 | Registered: Dec 2007 | From: texas
Jrazz
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Default  Posted: 9:28 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage


We are what we repeatedly do, excellence, then is not an act but a habit. - Aristotle

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nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 9:39 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

It's what I learned through the healing, that is - to embrace - within - every dam shred of every dam thing.
Damn straight. Welcome to NB, jj.


You can call me NIK

Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools, because they have to say something.
- Plato


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jjct
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Default  Posted: 9:54 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you! You're my kinda guides!
Funny thought just now.
You know the bad blind-sided feeling?
This is the good one!
Hahahaha!
Who'da thunk it?

Posts: 6432 | Registered: Dec 2007 | From: texas
jo2love
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Default  Posted: 10:37 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Welcome to NB, jjct.

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Default  Posted: 10:41 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Don't know your story, but like you already.

Go slow. Let intimacy build over some time. I suggest a controlled fall. Hold onto yourself.


Two gorgeous boys, 14 and 8.
D-day Sept. 15, 2006.
Me, BS 43
Him, WS 50
Her, OG (Guess she is 27 or 28 now! 19-21 at the time...)
Separated. Divorcing. Happily working on myself.

Posts: 734 | Registered: Oct 2006 | From: thankful for truth
jjct
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Default  Posted: 10:48 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thanks jo!
You guys are like angels on my shoulder - the right shoulder!

I'm going to go grab some grub & a cold one, listen to some John Philipso -
it's Independence Day!
Wait! Now that just figures, doesn't it?
hoo boy!

Will check in later...
Wave a flag!


Posts: 6432 | Registered: Dec 2007 | From: texas
jjct
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Default  Posted: 10:51 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

a controlled fall. Hold onto yourself.

Exactly.
Just what my mind needed to hear.
Confirms my feelings.
Thank you!
muah to all!
(not you, oial))))))))


Posts: 6432 | Registered: Dec 2007 | From: texas
jo2love
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Default  Posted: 10:56 AM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

it's Independence Day!
Wait! Now that just figures, doesn't it?


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caregiver9000
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Default  Posted: 1:18 PM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

jj!!

This made my day. Truly and surely, you deserve this, have earned this.

Embrace this risk and be yourself. I cannot wait for updates!!!

oh, boy... who wudda thunk it for sure.


Me: 43, independent, happy, despite co-parenting with a lower muppet
FT "Stretch" (and Skew!) ;)
DS 13 DS 10
S 5/2010
D 12/2012

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Kajem
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Default  Posted: 3:16 PM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

You've done the work.. now enjoy the fruits of that work.

Grabbing the popcorn and a cold one, sitting back... And looking forward to the updates.

hugs,

K


I trust you is a better compliment than I love you, because you may not trust the person you love, but you can always love the person you trust. - Unknown
Relationships are like sharing a book, it doesn't work if you're not on the same page.

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persevere
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Default  Posted: 6:12 PM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Great post jjct! Can't wait to hear more.


Me: BW-44
Him: XWH-44
Together 9 yrs
DDays: 1/10/2011
Status: Divorced 4/27/11

Above all, be the heroine, not the victim. - Nora Ephron

It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K. Rowling


Posts: 4380 | Registered: Mar 2011 | From: Texas
lieshurt
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Default  Posted: 7:54 PM, July 4th (Thursday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

The dang thing is -
I'm attracted.
& I want to be sure, inside,
that I'm NOT just attracted to attraction.

I agree with Inconnu. If this were the issue it would have happened before now.


((jjct))


I'm sorry if you don't like my Honesty, but to be fair I don't like your lies.

Sometimes it's better to push someone away...not because you stopped loving them but because you can't take the pain anymore.


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Amazonia
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Default  Posted: 6:19 AM, July 5th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage


Am I the only one who'd really like to hear more about this tingle inducing non-idol?


"You yourself deserve your love and affection as much as anybody in the universe." -Buddha
"Let's face it, life is a crap shoot." -Sad in AZ

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jjct
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Default  Posted: 7:23 AM, July 5th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

She
.
.
.
.
fills my eyes.

The fact that this has even happened astonishes me.

For all its unexpectedness, the tingle's strength...I won't say overwhelming...more like captivating.
Like a new flavor.
Like holding a Popsicle at arm's length.

She's mid-40's, so it's not exactly like I'm throbbing the cradle here, and I'm not sure if it matters, or how it might matter in the future - we're different races.

I don't care, actually.
The fact that this has even happened is all my mind can encompass right now.
Another amazing thing to me is
"I don't care"

Self-protection?
Maybe, it doesn't feel bad - just "different"...
but the outcome is uncertain,
yeah, like we don't know that!
...and I'm just riding the feeling right now.
She fills my eyes.


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