My WH is overseas for 3 weeks and it seems all I can think about is what he did to me. I'm crying again and angry, and I feel so alone. The same thing happened when I was at a conference for a few day's a couple weeks ago.
My IC said this is the perfect time to work on me, to separate myself from him. Not to think about what he did. But I can't seem to help it.
Before he left we talked about prostitutes overseas and the possibility of the company using girls to entertain. He assured me that none of that will happen and I believe him. We email and call.
Actually I think sometimes he is afraid I might have a RA because I have talked about it in the past. He said he would never want to know if I ever did. I have even gone so far as to look on CL, but never really considered it. Not my thing and reading here has REALLY showed me that it is absolutely not a good thing. But I'm off topic.
When he is home I mostly, as much as I can, to think about R, but when he is gone it's almost like dday all over again.
Why is this? Maybe I need to stay off SI while he is gone. I'm trying to stay busy. I have 17 yo twins that they and their friends are driving me crazy! (not really, they are good kids). I'm going out some.
I don't know why I am so blue when he is not here.