Cheating Hurt by Infidelity
Betrayal Wayward Donations lying
Welcome

Forums

Guidelines

Find a Local Counselor

The Healing Library

Media

Contact Us
lies
cover
In Association with Amazon.com
Support
Infidelity -
-
like us on facebook
You are not logged in. Login here or register.
[Register]
Newest Member: Sunnyhopeful82 (45341)

Reconciliation Post Reply     Print Topic    
User Topic: mind movies and R?
scangel3
♀ Member
Member # 36164
Default  Posted: 3:55 AM, June 26th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

WH and I are not in R yet, but moving in that direction, eventually, slowly, but the mind movies just won't stop! How do you handle them when your in a successful R? How long do they usually last? And how do you handle them when your in R and your WS is there?

I'm really struggling with this right now, but I want to know is R possible while the mind movies are so prominent?


BS-me 31, WH-31, M'd-10 years
DD 8.5, DS 6, DS 5.5
Dday 03/01/10 (our DD's bday)
A ended 08/31/10-09/02-10 (with multiple ddays in between).TT on 08/2012, 09/04/12, 11/16/2012, 01/2013, 6/25/2013 Says he wants R, but not proving it

Posts: 714 | Registered: Jul 2012 | From: Portland
HardenMyHeart
♂ Member
Member # 15902
Default  Posted: 10:28 AM, June 26th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I struggled with mind movies for the first year of R. They would usually hit during sex. Basically, I tried not to make it a big deal. When a mind movie would start to play during sex, I would focus on my wife and not worry about myself.

I was eventually able to desensitize myself to the mind movies by letting them play out in fast forward. If it didn't go away, I would play it again. I did this over and over, until I was bored with it.

So sorry for what you are going through.


Me: BH, Her: FWW - Long Term EA/PA
d-day: June 25, 2007
Married 30 years, Reconciled

Inner peace begins the moment you choose not to allow another person or event to control your emotions.


Posts: 5695 | Registered: Aug 2007
unfound
♀ Member
Member # 12802
Default  Posted: 10:39 AM, June 26th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

mind movies are the worst...

I would distract myself with counting things.. sounds crazy, I know. if I found myself having one, or one coming on, I would count anything within eye shot. there was a time I could tell you how many spindles were on the stairs, or how many circled objects were in the kitchen.... sounds insane now, but at the time, it worked for me.

like hardenmyheart said, letting them play out over and over, desensitizing, helps for some.

taking control of them and writing your own mental script for them helps others. ie: have the ap or your wh fart in the middle of a "romantic" scene or a giant bird swooping down and carrying one of them off...

having your wh available to talk to when they happen works for some too. being reassured that they understand and are willing to listen.

writing it down.
keeping a rubber band on your wrist and snapping it when one starts.
imagining a big red stop sign.

whatever works for you.

unfortunately, mind movies are a normal part of this mess. it is possible to R if you're having them. over time (and doing the hard work on both your parts to work through this during that time) will help, and they will slowly, too slowly to be fair, sorry, diminish over time.


ka-mai
*******************
From time to time, I do consider that I might be mad. Like any self-respecting lunatic, however, I am always quick to dismiss any doubts about my sanity. DK

Posts: 14861 | Registered: Nov 2006 | From: mercury's underboob
DoneWithLove
♀ Member
Member # 39380
Default  Posted: 12:57 PM, June 26th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

We are 2 months into R and im already bored with my mind movies. I replayed them endlessly until I just didnt feel like crying over it anymore. Now that im past the details, I feel better about R now and feel like im moving in the right direction now. Im past the who, what, where, and when and now we are working on the why. Btw, there's a lot of pieces to the puzzle, for some people, when it comes to the why. So dig deep and get every little thing out, its been helping us tremendously. Good luck


BW: Me (24)
FWH: Him (24) Jlaz1988ws
Together 11/12/06
2 sons, ages 5 and 1
Married 9/29/12
EA turned PA with OW/ coworker for 2- 4 weeks
D day 4/20/13
TT 4/20/13 - 7/30/13
"R" 5/3/13

Posts: 191 | Registered: May 2013 | From: The mitten state
nekokamisama
♂ New Member
Member # 38695
Default  Posted: 1:22 PM, June 26th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I had a rather difficult mind movie event happen last week in which I had uncovered an inconsistency in my FWW's story about the incident. Eventually I typed it up into my journal and let her read the entire thing. This of course prompted discussion and found out that she TT'd on this and another incident.

Afterwards, I sat down and typed up the other prominent mind movies I have had for us to discuss.


Me: BS/FWH 46
Her: FWW/BS 39
OM: 32 3-month EA/PA
Married: 11 years
2 Sons: 8,20

D-Day 2004 (my EA/PA, her EA almost PA)
D-Day 2005 (her EA)
D-Day 8/28/2012 (TT her EA)
D-Day #2 7/22/2013 (more TT)
D-Day #3 7/24/2013 (Truth 2.0 EA/ PA)
In R


Posts: 13 | Registered: Mar 2013
scangel3
♀ Member
Member # 36164
Default  Posted: 2:22 PM, June 26th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Thank you everyone for the replies, I hate that 3 years out and I'm still having mind movies (thanks to TT). They're worse then before, it's like the images are on repeat over and over again, especially when I close my eyes! And there really bad during sex!

My mind movies in the past went away to a point, but they never fully left during sex, now these new ones are so much more intense, it's driving me crazy. I try to keep myself distracted during the day, but I can't sleep at night, the second I lay down my mind takes over. I want to desensitize from them but I don't see that happening for a long time!


BS-me 31, WH-31, M'd-10 years
DD 8.5, DS 6, DS 5.5
Dday 03/01/10 (our DD's bday)
A ended 08/31/10-09/02-10 (with multiple ddays in between).TT on 08/2012, 09/04/12, 11/16/2012, 01/2013, 6/25/2013 Says he wants R, but not proving it

Posts: 714 | Registered: Jul 2012 | From: Portland
Tired05
♀ Member
Member # 39609
Default  Posted: 2:58 PM, June 26th (Wednesday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

taking control of them and writing your own mental script for them helps others. ie: have the ap or your wh fart in the middle of a "romantic" scene or a giant bird swooping down and carrying one of them off...

THANK YOU for this! This is amazing advice. I feel like this will stop the movies from at the least ruining my mood and at the most ruining my day.


Together 6 yrs. M 4 yrs. DD born 3/1/2013.
Me: BS -- Him: 1 EA/PA (6mos), PA (MW), and 6 ONS...Been at it for almost 5 yrs. *Still slave to TT* 1st DDay- 11/24/2012,
.....OC due in August.....

Posts: 122 | Registered: Jun 2013 | From: United States
Topic Posts: 7

Return to Forum: Reconciliation Post Reply to this Topic
adultry
Go to :
madness  
© 2002 - 2014 SurvivingInfidelity.com. All Rights Reserved.