Oh wow, what a perfectly timed topic
WH was here for a visit last week (first time in almost 16 weeks, and the day after I sent him texts that I was letting go, coincidence???)
Anyway, the next day I realized that while he was here I didnt really look at him, I know what he was wearing, but never really looked him in the eyes or anywhere in the face, didnt do it consciencely, but I realize after, it was my brains way of protecting myself.
I have fallen back into his arms, just by looking at him before and although I didnt think about it until after he left. I didnt do that this time and I am so very proud of myself, he didnt suck me back in this time
But of course that was a week ago and he is gone back out with the OW living their happy lies