I completely understand your sense of loss and unrest.
I also understand your desire to return to your roots. I've spent time visiting grandparents graves and the house I grew up in.
I have dreams a little bit like yours but money is not to be found right now and I, too, long for travel and for roots.
I'm really sorry .Ashland 13
A person is a person, no matter how small. -Dr. Suess