I'm trying to keep from over-focusing on why he feels that he needs the IC to do this. To write this while in session. Maybe it's just me freaking a bit from some strong triggers around me right now. Not sure.
He did say he was sorry for putting it off, has seen with our new MC how much his not doing so for months has hurt me and made me feel unsafe and confused. I guess I still am in the 'waiting for other shoe to drop' syndrome again. And it may be for nothing at all...for nothing more than I already know. I keep some distance to protect myself still...maybe that's what I'm still feeling. I don't know, just rambling from the meds I'm on for pain . Not even sure this all makes sense.
ETA fixed typos