I so struggle with this time of the year. This is when it really came to a head and H was so shitty to me.
I just sat and watched the local fireworks and remembered taking the kids to see them alone because H wouldn't go with us. I know now it was because he used the time to call OW.
We went to a graduation party today. It was at friends of ours whose mom saw H and OW at he casino on thir overnight trip together. He was supposed to be taking some time to think about us. Instead he took OW
We're talking about reaffirming our vows on our 25th anniversary next year. I wrote mine already. The thing is I don't know if I can say them.
I don't want to D. I just want he hurt to go away. The sad thing is that I don't see the possibility of that ever happening. This will ALWAYS hurt. Maybe not as much as originally, but it'll always hurt.